Man at the end of the road.

Im a 28 year old man who is at the end of his road. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and i have strong symptoms of ADD. During my ADHD tests i was off by 2 points of getting diagnosed

I have a strong desire to end it all because of the ups and downs in life, I feel like anything i try allways collapses on me. I have been close to the " good life" many times, but allways fell in my knees.

i have history of pouring gasoline over myself and playing with matches.

I cannot take a loan because of my failed company i have no credit score.

I dont have a degree in anything because everytime i start studying it becomes unbareable because of my

wondering mind (ADD) and i allways think maby this isn't just for me.

I have been on 7 different schools, but nothing finished

I haven't felt normal since i was 18.

I cannot go to work because i have no degrees and because of my failed company i cannot make a new one until i have payed my debts. and if i land a low paying job the goverment takes 30 % of what i make after taxes.

I feel like this life isnt just for me and i cant make anything right. I understand if you say that other people need the money more than me, and i respect that. But this is a plea of a man who is at the end of his road.

I don't want to commit to crime to gather money, so i decided to turn to the good of people.

The money goes entirely towards finding doctor who can help me with my ADD symptoms and bring

me back to the book of the living. I will take pictures of the journey and the healing progress.

I'm at the end of my road and my wits. This is my last plea for kindness.