Lost my job and get Tricked

My name is Akalili Pagi. Im from Indonesia and I live in Japan about 4 and half years. I have graduate from Game Design vocational school and still do a job Hunting in Japan.

Because the reason of part time job can't give me a work visa, i still looking for a real job. And im doing to hunting a real job beside do a part time job. Because my parent's can't give me some money anymore since 2 years ago. So im working for my living cost

Maybe some people said that im so kind. Even to everyone. But sometimes it make me look stupid. I lend a some money to my friend and he just give the 1/3 back. Total is about 120,000 in Japanese yen and i just get abou 30,000yen. And i have try to contact Him But i can't keep it contact with him until now. I heard that he had ho back to his country Is very confusing me. I think he just run away. It just out of my mind. I just kind to him but he never come when i need him.

Besides, i get fired from my last part time job about 2 months ago. My boss said they don't need me anymore. Im so shocked. Which is i need to found a new part time job while found a real job. this is crazy i think. It really make me confuse. My parents can't help me because we have some financial problem in my family. Sometimes i think i am a useless child. Because i can't help my parents when they need helps.

Fortunately, i have any nice friend who can lend me some money, but i know it very hard to me to give it back those money. I hope people who read this page will help me even a little. it means some to me. And I hope i can get a better life, better job of course.

Please help me to pay my living cost also my loan. I will treat you all when you guys get holiday in Japan of course when i get successful i will not forget what did you do for me. My Name is Akalili Mentari Pagi and i Love you guys

Thank you!