Looking for a fresh start with diabetes

Hello world,

My name is Abdul Jaleel. And I've been diagnosed with diabetes for the past 16 years. Im 22 years old this 2017.

For the past years ive been neglecting my health because of my low self esteem in handling diabetes. I didnt realise how precious life is for an individual. I thought i was an alien within the society even in my own family. Because im the only one that has diabetes. Ive always thought its a curse rather than a blessing.

To cut things short, i went for a regular check up until the doctor said that my albumin creatinine is increasing. In other words my kidney isn't functioning well. But its an early stage so its too early to judge whether is it because of my blood sugar is haywire or its actually my kidney isnt functioning well.

I went home and keep thinking of what of my life would be. Wil i have kids, will i ever get married. Will i see my kids grow, will i this will i that.

I've decided to finally man up and take this responsibility of taking back my life on track. I've been keeping in touch with my doctor. Ive been checking my blood sugar regularly, counting properly.

With all that effort i realise my control wasnt that good. I contacted my doctor and told her to admit me in a ward so i know the cause . Its been a week. And the doctor said i have a dawn phenomenon which means my fasting sugar during the morning is high. The doctor keep the morning reading as priority and tried to put it in range. But failed. There's one option that can put my blood sugar readings in range

The doctor recommended me to use insulin pump. And this doesn't come cheap. In malaysia it would cost around MYR36,000 thats roughly USD8,000. Ive requested an extra USD5,000 for the monthly commitment for the first year to keep the pump going. Ill be finishing my studies by mid 2018 and I'll be able to earn a living when im done with studies.

This is one turning point for me. I have the spirit in me now to make changes and take control my life. I need your help. Even if its a dollar from each and everyone of you. It would help me lessen the burden on my shoulder for this insulin pump

Thank you all.