I have exhausted all avenues in seeking money to help alleviate the financial crisis I'm currently experiencing.
With so much going on in the world and those in Texas experiencing true devastation I'm ashamed at 46yrs old to be asking for financial assistance. Currently I'm trapped in a payday loan cycle and I can't see my way out of this vicious cycle.
I created this whirlwind financial mess that I'm in because I don't place value on myself or the hard work I do on a day today basis and I don't know how to say no because at my age I'm still trying to please others and make them happy while I suffer and have no one to turn to when I need a bail out.
It took me to reach this ultimate level of low to finally realize I need to break ties to put myself and financial, mental, physical health above others. I can clearly see my faults and have been separating myself and stop overextending of myself to those who have taken advantage of my kindness and generosity through the years. I have learned that I punished myself to be treated as "normal" because of my HIV status. Currently I'm undetectable but even though I say I have fully accepted my diagnosis I learned I punish myself by trying to please and let others walk over and degrade me mentally and financially. The last 3 1/2 years has been the hardest mentally I have been reduced to nothing by those who said they loved me. Constantly being verbally abused has led me to losing my hair, breaking out in hives, not sleeping at night all while trying to mask my pain and have some type of normalcy in my life.
I'm at an all time low that I have resulted to seeking money from strangers. I can't get any more payday loans, my credit cards are maxed I just got paid on 8/31/2017 and my bank account is overdrawn by ($660) and I haven't paid my rent of $880 which was due on the first of September. Today 9/3/2017 will start the late fee charges of $25 +$5/day for each additional day late.
I'm a hard worker, I work for a company with room for advancement (working on moving up within the company). I'm willing to get a second job and I sew on the side to make extra money to buy lunch or put gas in my car. My car is on its last leg and until I can clear up this financial mess I created I can't even entertain yet be approved for an affordable car loan.
If there's anyone out there willing to help me and know the money will be put to use to pay my rent and to bring my account to a positive balance may God continue to bless you to be able to help those in need. My heart and mind is genuine, I'm honest and have to say I truly have lived a life of trust that has made me ignorant to selfish predators. One day I know I will be in a position to give accordingly and to those less fortunate and within my limitations.
Please donate if you're heart and mind is true and not you're not preying on someone who is already down and hanging on to life by a prayer.
My PayPal link for donating is : PayPal.Me/tflatrock88