lifetime of heartache

I know my story isnt life or death yet compared to some of the others but we are at the end of our ropes with everything. In 1995 i was in a very bad car accident that change my whole life. I was flown to Pittsburgh,Pa and on the way i even died a couple times. I was in a coma for a week from having a head injury,luckily i pulled through and the day i woke up they sent me home without even checking me over.Ever since then i have not been able to function the way i used to, i am unable to work which is very hard for my family and I. I have a rough time being around people, a loss of memory, cant concentrate and I have loss interests in a lot of things i used to enjoy . My depression and anxiety just keeps getting worse as i get older. I have been on many anti depressants but no pill is going to help me the way it should because a pill cant fix a brain injury. All i do is cry over everything and I have to remind my kids all the time that i didnt choose to live my life this way.My mother told me that im like a totally different person.In the past couple years i have been diagnosed with pulmonary  heart disease ,liver disease and lung problems . I have been trying to get ssi for a few years now but they keep turning me down. About ten years ago i moved my mother in with us to take care of her she was diagnosed with lupus, fibromyalgia,memory loss, three kinds of arthritis,peripheral artery disease,she has a hole in her temple full of veins that could burst anytime .She has had a heart attack,problems breathing and she also has degenerative bone disease. She falls all the time ,broke her ankle last year and sprained the same one last month. It doesnt help either when we live in a house that has alot of steps.We live off her seven hundred and some a month which is also hard on my 14 year old daughter she also has to give up a lot of school functions because we never have the gas or a reliable car and her dream is to go to college but i doubt that will happen.So its rough  because i cant even get my mother to the doctors that she needs to see for her lupus and to all of our other appointments.Now we are living with a mold problem that has all of us getting sick on top of everything else.My daughter is now having alot of aches and pains and symptoms of breathing problems.We cant move  because we dont have money for deposit and first and last months rent people ask for or the help. These last two years have been so bad my mother cant even take her shihtzu to get his shots and we have to dig up change most of the time to get the dog his food and treats. Hes nine years old  and such a baby that we cant stop spoiling him now so we even give up things just so we can buy him his treats. I pray to god everyday, things will change for the better for my family and I.