I’m 19 and my nose is very big and I have a bump. My nose is making me depressed. I refuse to go out, I refuse to go on dates, I refuse to have pictures taken. It makes me feel worse than everyone else. And it's not just one of those things that we don't like about ourselves but have to accept it - I'm becoming very obsessed with it.
For example, whenever someone asks me for a lift, I make up excuses. And it's not because I don't want to do them a favour, but I CAN'T STAND someone sitting next to me in a car and looking at my profile.
Also, when I got with my (now ex) boyfriend, I REFUSED to be introduced to his friends and family for months because I thought they wouldnt accept me... because of my nose. I realise how stupid this sounds, and obviously I personally would not dislike someone because of their looks, but it's just constantly in my head, and even though I keep telling myself I should accept it, i just cant. IMPOSSIBLE.
Whenever I mention it to my friends they seem to brush it off and not take it seriously. I spend almost every night crying myself to sleep about it. Not accepting yourself is probably one of the worst things - worse than others not accepting you. I've decided I want a nose job, and my family agreed I should have it done because they see how unhappy it makes me. However, I'm a apprenticeship mental health care assistant I cannot afford it.
PS. I'm not a spoilt little girl, this is honestly ruining my life by making me so self conscious. I hate living like this. So if you want to criticize me because I want to get it for free please don't. I'm living in self created hell. I've tried just accepting myself but it just gets harder by the day.