Please help me leave abusive partner

Hello, my name is Suzanne. I live with my BF, moving around for his job. Because of that I find myself without friends or anyone I can trust and without my own finances. So I’m reaching out, choosing this route in hopes that he doesn’t find out, seeking financial help to leave my boyfriend, go back to my daughter and granddaughter on the other side of the country and start life over.

The relationship has become extremely volatile mixed with alcohol and I just can’t take the nightly fighting, the hitting, punching, slapping, the demeaning, belittling, insults, control, manipulation, intimidation, the sexual abuse, the threats, gaslighting, blaming me for why everything is wrong, blaming me for why I get hit. My daughter, granddaughter and her boyfriend have witnessed the treatment.

I can’t take the panic attacks and near breakdowns at the thought of him coming home every night and doing this all over again. I’m trembling most of time because I’m scared of him and fear I or my dogs getting hit. Didn’t go to the police in the beginning. I have not filed a report and don’t want him to go to jail that would just make things worse. This man is not stupid and I would definitely feel the blow back if I did just that.

I just want out and to move on, get some counseling and start healing from the emotional, mental, sexual and physical abuse that I have endured for 6 years so that I can live a “normal” life.

Once at my final destination I will need to find some place to live, I have 2 dogs so that’s going to be a challenge.

Rent - first, last, sec dep, pet dep. renters ins.

Utilities - power, gas, water, sew, trash.

Transportation - car, gas, maintenance, ins.

Counseling - (need to find)

Job search - resume, outfit for interview, proper work attire (cause I’m gonna get that job!)

While I was too scared to do anything before and thought I was at a loss, I still went ahead and mapped out what I need to leave this situation.

A blessed thank you for the help. It is not easy by any means to 1. Admit this is happening to you or that you allowed it to happen to you. 2. Admit you are a domestic abuse victim.