Last resort

For five years I've been saving money to get a gaming laptop only to run into set back after set back. The reason I always get set back is because the house next door to me is like a revolving door. The house next door is owned by a slum lord who kicks out the family after she's drained them dry. I even try to warn the neighbors before they decide to rent the place. Which is also in the worst condition. Black mold and rats galore. Usually I become friends with the neighbors so I try to help them by opening my hours to them. But unfortunately the electric and gas company are also slum lords in their home own rights. Even the water company is terrible. And after they move from my place I'm usually left with a big bill and no food. There goes all my saved up money. I normally wouldn't go to a site like this but all I've wanted for five years was a laptop that can game. So I can have some fun before having to return to my revolving door of a life. I didn't even want to post here either. To me making a post like this just feels down right selfish. I already hate myself for it but I've got no other last resorts. I don't expect anything