Laptop for Youtube and content making

I am feeling awkward and shameful to ask for funding from this respective community. I am 18 years old and just came out from school. I dont have any job cuz of covid lockdown in Malaysia. But I am planning to start doing a thing that i always dream of. Youtube Gaming. Create a channel is easy from phone. But here's the problem ,I HAVE NO EQUIPMENT. me and my family finance obviously does not allow me to afford a recordable computer/laptop for my gameplay as it was on a breaking point

This COVID lockdown is my only best chance to make a content and try to make a name out of it. And i need to help my family with this equipment in terms of finance. I've been passion for this youtube and gaming thing since i was a kid by looking some legendary youtuber like pewdiepie and skydoesminecraft doing it. I know people who are reading this might starting give some advice or critique instead of funding, But here's my general answer for it, finance problem and no equipment, i never own a single laptop or pc in my life. I was born in a family that manage to feed all of us and i am grateful to born in this family that fed me all along. And thanks to covid , my family income was at a breaking point till askin for a book is a hard thing to ask. I dont want much money for high end equipment. An budget gaming recordable laptop /pc is enough for me to be grateful for the good people.

If anyone who had a heart to help me out pls donate, its means a lot for my dream.