Her name is Kai. She's my best friend, she has been suffering from depression and anxiety since we were 11. She's cheerful, funny, and talkative in front of our friends, but at the end of the day, she breaks down. People have no idea she has a mental disorder unless she tells them, but most of the time, they just laugh it off. Kai loves telling jokes, you see, and they think her mental disorder is one of them.
She lost her mother on February 13,2018, and since then I noticed she also lost her will to live. That, I guess, triggered her to be more depressed/anxious/suicidal than ever. She's currently unemployed and lives with me but couldn't bring herself to find a job because she's mentally and emotionally unstable. She would cry all of a sudden, would cheer up after a minute, then back at crying again. Sometimes she's just sitting on her bed, unable to say anything. I've never seen her act like this. Sure, she had lots of panic attacks before and we were able to deal with them together, but now, it's different. Her panic attacks are becoming more frequent and uncontrollable. Her suicidal tendencies have gone worse, and I think she's starting to self harm again (I'm not so sure because there are no signs of it yet). She also mentioned something about hearing voices, and monsters . I knew she was getting better, but I guess the death of her mother destroyed all the walls she's built for years, and now she's back to her old self again. I'm scared of what she would do to herself when she's alone, and I am honestly having a hard time with both our expenses, so I couldn't afford to bring her to the doctor anymore.
I decided to create this campaign primarily to get help for Kai. I can't do all these on my own, It hurts seeing my best friend slowly dying in front of me and I can't do anything about it. Also, I want to make people aware that depression is not some joke to be laughed about, or to be brushed off. Depression is real and deadly, and most of the time, people don't notice it or take it seriously.
She's grateful of my support, but I know she's barely hanging on. I would like her to seek help from a psychiatrist, and be on a therapy session or something. I want her to be on a constant medication, if possible. I want her to stand on her feet again, to see her smile genuinely, I want my best friend to live. Please help Kai.