Justice too be served! My children were kidnapped and I need help. PLEASE!

I mother of 3 children . Ages 10(boy),8,6(girls). My children were kidnapped by their father . For almost a year I didn't even know where he took them. With no help from the police or the courts too bring my babies back home, I have been suffering from severe depression ! Also post grammatical stress disorder. After he took off with my kids I lost my job and my life fell too pieces ! I fell too pieces ! I had been fighting thru the courts too regain my children and my ex husband had falsifted court documents and sent me a letter changing my court date in which I had then missed the actual court date because it was a fake document! I NEED A LAWYER TOO HELP ME! BUT CAN NOT AFFORD IT! I NEED JUSTICE TOO BE SERVED ! I recently found out that my 8 year old daughter has lukemia! And she needs me right now! This is so hard for me too not be able too do anything about this situation ! I have so much paperwork that I need too give the court in this matter. How ever the court requires it be done in a certain matter that I can not do without the help of a attorney ! Please can anyone help me too pay for the legal fees associated with this matter? I also need cash too help me get back on my feet since I have been emotionally unstable and severely depressed. I lost everything after my kids were stolen from me! I just want my life back! Please help me!