In a search for help to survive so I can continue helping others

Dear All,

I am not here to ask to give me, and I'll take it. I am here to ask you for your help so I can continue to help others.

Covid-19 situation drove me to the edge of a cliff. Have a degree in Economics, 2 children, a wife, really good job in tourism, going to gym and helping others. Those were my decisions that I lived by. But as said... 2020 took away my job (lock down), my family (due to no income for 8 months we separated due to no understanding ☹) and at the end also the option to help others. I still do charity but thru the 12+ months became one to ☹.

But that is life (or so they say). The only desire I have is to get back on track so I can be there for my 2 boys. What happens to me…will happen. But they have their whole life in front of them. Not used to ask which is also seen by the written. I was and still am a giver. An optimist that is going towards pessimism. Honestly, tried to take my life 2 times but…cannot. Want to see my boys grow up and set them an example.

And before judging; yes, I do work now for the last 6 months but the depth I created is just too big to cover. All together it is more than 15.000€. Honestly just want to put that behind me and move as I can and know how to. Even now my pay-check is 1200€ which covers my rent (450€ + 150€ costs), child support (300€) and bank credit (96€ per month). So I am left with 200€ until the next pay-check to cover food, school for boys, training for them (they play handball and football), other monthly costs (mobile, internet, insurance, petrol,), which means borrow another 500€every month ☹. But do not want that anymore. I just want to live and share.

That is why I kindly and humbly ask you for your help. I know there are millions of us that need it, there are millions that need it more, help me to help others. My email is [email protected] and I will gladly answer every question you might have. I am not fake; I am just a person that wants to survive and live in peace as much as possible. With my boys. All comes and goes but their love… only thing that keeps me going.

God bless and be there for each other. Since today you are here and tomorrow…