I’m suffering from depression and hopelessness

Hello I am Maruf . I'm from Bangladesh and I'm 23 years old . I want to be a professional gamer . My Gaming nick name is SpYde & my Youtube Channel Name is SpYdeisTerrible . I want to build my career in gaming. I had plan to make some gameplay videos and stream though my phone . After earning some money form my stream and other source I would have brought a secondhand gaming Pc . But it has been very difficult for me to continue my gaming career. Few weeks ago my phone accidentally got damaged and after that my phone touch doesn't work properly . Though I repaired the phone it doesn't work properly. I also don't have that money to bring a new phone. My family can't not provide that money. Because the financial condition is not good. Moreover my father died 5 years ago and my mother is house wife. with my broken phone I can't play. So, I used play with other's phone. Everyday I have only 1 hour to make that video with help of other device. It's very difficult to make the video in one hour. Sometimes O don't have that time or I don't get the phone. I faced many kinds of difficulties. The few income I had earlier somehow stop. Because of this I'm suffering form depression and hopelessness.

Watch My Gameplay

If you want you can watch my gameplay from my Youtube Channel, which name is SpYdeisTerrible. I'm not a pro player like shroud ,Ninja, Drdisrespect because I don't have such gaming device like them. I want to be a pro players like them but 1 hour is not enough for me to creating content or represent my skills in front of people. I really need a gaming device to improve my skills. Trust me if I have a good gaming device or good opportunities, I will able to prove myself. This is not my overconfidence if I have a good gaming pc I will be a pro player like them and that time I can beat them. I really need a good support for my gaming career.I hope you guys have understood me and you will support me.

Thank you

{Note : If I'm unable to make you understand my problems then please don't misunderstood me}