I am Francis Joshua Chua..a public high school teacher in Longos National High School at Malabon City.
I lost my father in an anuerysm stroke wherein we have spent almost a year in a hospital confinement.... which cost us almost all of our remaining resources for our hospital expenses and his operation …I was forced to take series of loans to suffice our needs....then while we are in the hospital…another tragedy occurred,,.our house in Catmon, Malabon have been caught by fire.
This is the time that I was so depressed with my life....and I was diagnosed with prostate cancer..truly cancers are brought by negative emotions stored inside of us.
My heart is still heavy every time I see my mother, Norma now 65 years old, still forced to work as a sewer to support the two of us…I am a teacher but receiving no salary at all due to the loans I have made to remedy the tragedies in our life…my ATM salary was even pawned to a loan shark due to our extreme financial needs as well as the pension left by my father…I promise on my father's grave that I will do everything to make my mother for the rest of her life....and i really really like this woman to rest and live abundantly again for she greatly greatly deserves it.
Every time I look at her cooking our food....I used to watched her without her seeing me and I just imagine a lot of things I would like her to enjoy in her life...I would love to see her and I travel to beautiful places in this world together...taking wonderful pictures and videos together...I would love to see her enjoy the beauty of this world while she is still strong and able.
When she sleeps...I just imagine how it would be to see her sleep in a nice comfortable bed in her own room..that she will always have a peaceful sleep and wake up anytime she wants..for there is no need for her to work anymore..
This woman is my pillar of my strength and taught me how to love unconditionally because no matter how poor we have been...she never left her husband..she stood by my father for almost a year in the hospital...she never get tired working just to support her loved ones....God knows she deserves to have a rest by now...and I swear to the universe that I will cross heaven and earth just to give it to her if only I could, If only I can...for without her...I will not be here...I am nothing....but it will take four years, four years! for me to fully recover from my financial status,,,and she will be nearly 70 by then..and I may not be here anymore with her...I don't want to leave her poor and desolate on her own.
Solutions I have attempted so far to solve our situation--I tried to run for a promotion--but it was given to someone else, I decided to embark to a business but it always failed...I tried taking online teaching job but long exposure to computer making me dizzy and vomit due to my health condition...Now I am currently planning to work as an employee private industry and leave teaching behind if I can't find a solution to this....but teaching children is deeply my life's passion...it is where my heart sings everyday...it is in their smiles where I feel so much joy doing this vocation even without salary...and there is so much potential in these young ones to change the world someday.
I am lost right now sir/ma'am…that’s why I am now here asking Source-God and anyone able in this world for assistance I just want to pay off all my loans to have my monthly salary back in full scale and to see my mother stop working in her old age and just enjoy life while she is still capable and while I am still here.
I want to stay in the teaching field...But it is so hard to face the class while my heart is very heavy and dampened every time I look at our situation.... my mind is being clouded with darkness, my heart is being held down by sadness brought by poverty, I can't focus anymore...as if dark clouds are hovering over me...so I am asking for a helping hand so I can get up on my feet and continue my mission as a teacher..for I used to be an outstanding teacher in our school and I graduated as Magna Cum Laude in educationat City of Malabon University....I know I can give so much more for the future generation of this country...and I don't want to leave this very noble profession for here is where my heart lies.
There is no expectation in my part that anyone will really help or even share this....i am just trying all possible means to alleviate our life's situation.
I believe in the power of the universe that seeks what our heart truly desires...God...Source...I pray that you take over from here...I lay everything in divine's hand...I know that there are angels in this world that someday,somehow will hear my cry for help...Thank you so much in your charity and may God bless you ten folds in your generosity and whatever amount of donation that you will share for me.
Francis Joshua R. Chua