I want to change myself

Being single for 30 years I want to change myself

Because I have been relatively self-confined, have always had obstacles in communication, fear of going to places with many people, fear of going to unfamiliar atmosphere, so I have been single for 30 years, because there is no way to chat with heterosexual, parents do not understand, have been in a passive state, very want to change themselves.

Hope to travel to more and more distant places, because someone told me, if you are not happy and uncomfortable, then try another place, maybe I will find the driving force and direction of progress in the process of travel. If a 30-year-old girl in our country is not married, it is a very disgraceful thing, I have been escaping from reality, if I can raise enough funds, I hope to try. Maybe I'll come back to life.