I want to be alive. pleas help me

Iam tahmina Rahman,iam married & i have one child. My husband living Malaysia since 2012.but i live in Bangladesh with my child.my husband is missing last 6 months.we can't contract with him.At present me & my child living badly & poorly.my child read in class four&he went coaching regularly, but now a days i can't bear my son study costing.that's why he is not able to go school & he can't take tution& coaching. Right now our Economical condition is very poor we don’t have money to buy food and can't bear my child study costing. Moreover i Don't know how i buy food,& provide house rent money,& others fee.that's why badly need help from my husband. My son ask me why didn’t call us. He want to know his father present conditions.we trying to contract him but we failed.my son is very depressed, he regularly crying for his father.he want back him.we are feeling worry for him.please come back in our life we are missing him.Please help me. Fi amanillah. Thanks