I want to be a self-employe.

I'm Abdullah, a student. From my childhoo, i want to be a actor as well as a youtuber. But, a youtuber's need a camera, microphone, some lighting system. I've nothing at all. I need to buy these. But, money, thats stands so far from me. My father is a poor farmer. He don't understand what i need..!! & he won't understand it ever because of money. He want, i work with him in field, Need not study, need not to be a youtuber or an actor.

Money crisis keep me a long distance from my dream. I want to be an actor, an youtuber.