I need your help to cure my depression

I wanna help myself by spending money on a game called Genshin Impact. I attempted to kill myself several times but plan on changing myself by seeking happiness on Genshin first. It'll help me a lot by calming myself down in game. I have internet problems too (I tried to convince my parents to get better internet but they won't listen to me) I just use data to play Genshin and update. I just wanna make myself feel better, I don't wanna be a toxic person anymore and I'll really appreciate your help.