I Didn’t Pick To Be Homeless!

In 2010 I had a life changing moment. A moment that will last a life time I'm afraid. I married the man of my dreams a few years before that. A respected man in a higher position at the Department of Corrections. It was a dream come true at that time. I no longer had the stress of battling everyday life solo. I still remember the first time not having to mentally count my grocery items up before checking out to make sure I had enough. Being able to pay bills without nightly worrying where it was all going to come from. He gave me a world I had never known, inner peace. A couple of years later he had to have emergency open heart surgery, within the next year we were told that 2 of the bypasses had failed and could not be repaired. One of the vessels could not be fixed the first time because it was too small. The physician urged retirement as soon as possible and gave him a probable 2 year life expectancy. I was devastated, I became fearful of everything. I was now afraid to leave outside the home without him, afraid to sleep when he slept in fear of waking up and finding him dead. I began psychiatric care, I lost my job, I prayed hard to God to just not let him die. Well, you know that saying "be careful what you pray or wish for". No truer words could be spoken! After about six months of intense therapy upon my physician's and husband's encouragement I went to visit my mother for a week in East Tennessee. While I was there I received a phone call saying my husband had been caught molesting my 5 year old Grandaughter. I was in shock, disbelief and all of the above. Plus I was stranded in East Tennessee with no way back until he came and got me. The police came that night and took him downtown to question him and then brought him back home. He disappeared the next morning on his Harley, a Harley I cosigned for, taking no medications, no phone only a 9mil Rueger. They found the Harley some 5 years later but not him or the gun. No leads have ever came in. He destroyed me and my family. He left me with every bill, every decision, every unanswered question and my family in a heart broken mental mess. I had a breakdown. I was in a dark place for a long time, it's still hard to not visit there sometimes now. My daughter became a herion addict. However, My Granddaughter is a survivor! I'm so PROUD of her. I'm just in awe of her everyday. I come to you today to ask for any help to save my family home of 40 years. My home was originally paid off than after I got married we decided to put on addition, half the size of the original home. After that was completed there were still a few things that we wanted done to upgrade the 1940 part of the house to the addition we had just put on so we took out a line of credit. It's the line of credit that is in deferment. I did not get it paid off in the specified time so they gave me a deferment for a year, due to my now terrible credit and that he was not able to come sign for an extension or refinance. So here I am, begging to save my family home. I raised my children here and some of my grandchildren. I've told a part of my life that I rarely ever tell anyone about. So, please no matter how small, anything will be greatly appreciated. And I will live everyday to pay it forward.