Hello everyone. My name is Alex and this is my story. It all started in 2009 when my mother passed away from colon cancer. I knew back then that my life would be hard. In 2012 my father was next and I felt all alone in the world. In 2015 I got, however, married, but I would not get the "happily ever after" since my ex-husband abused me and treated me less than garbage. After such a devastating loss of both of my parents I was really vulnerable and he used me for his own gain. I lost my dreams, my personality went to hell, I didn't have any opinions and I was just a wreck. I couldn't express any more feelings, no joy, no happyness, not even sadness. I was a zombie. In spring of 2018 I had the courage to stand up for myself and asked for a divorce (which was finalised in October this year), but it was the worst year of my life. My ex threatened me that if I don't pay him 5000 euros he will not sign the divorce papers, he raped me, he broke into my house and abused me, stole my phone, my laptop, my PC, he harassed me on my phone, made fake accounts on social media ( I had to close all my social media down, my emails as well, which he hacked ). He almost took my cat. Eventually I talked to a lawyer and managed to do everything civilised, but the problem is that when he came to take his things, he took most of it, even if it wasn't his, but my lawyer told, me "if you want to get rid of him, give him and be done with it" and this is how I ended up with 2 empty rooms, with no TV, computer, nothing. I only have furniture in my living room, where I currently sleep. I managed to get up on a personal level, but finacially I am in debt and I dread the holiday, when I'm going to be home alone, watching tv shows on my phone.
What I am asking for is a little nudge, so I can get rid of my debt and getting out of this one horse town, get a job, where I can help animals and the environment (I studied environmental engineering in school, but of course I'm not working in my domain) and move on with my life. I am still afraid that if I remain in this city, he will try to harass me. I still have nightmares that he will break into my house and abuse me again and take my things (which are few as it is).
Thank you for your generosity! You don't know how much you are doing, what a significant impact you would have on my life and after 9 years of suffering and losing people that mattered to me, I will finally be able to move on and start my life. Thank you again!