Hospital life, roles reversed

Hi everyone! First off just want to say thank you for stopping by and taking a glimpse into my life!

Where to begin back into 2012 my now fiancé was admitted into the hospital due to severe abdominal pain he was in the hospital for three days and the outcome... No answers just a hearty sized medical bill in the end. After he was released my fiancé could not work for a month and we struggled with money and lost our apartment. After being out for a month he was able to gain his strength back and return to work.

Flash forward to 2014 we were able to move back in to a new apartment but it was a repeat all over again... My finance had gotten his pain and was put back in the hospital only this time to find a large cyst in his lower intestines. The cyst had cause his lower intestines to swell up so bad that you could just look at his stomach and it seemed as if someone put a blown up balloon in there. They had kept him for a week and then released him to go home except this time he had to be off work for over six months because his pain was still so severe and his ability to do even the littlest things like bending down had hurt him. He went through months of procedures and tests. After a total of seven months of being off of work the cyst was removed and he was slowly gaining his strength back.

During his time off of work and his journey back to being healthy, I was working as hard as I could sometimes almost 80 hours in one week at minimum wage to maintain a stable place for my fiancé to feel comfortable while he was recovering. There were some days I would have to go sit in the bathroom and cry to myself wondering how I'm going to do this on my own and keep him comfortable during everything he was going through, but after every rainfall shed I would step back out and see him smile at me through his hurt and know he was my motivation I was determined to do it for him. I had to apply for three loans to take care of rent, bills, and medical bills just so we could be alright. Now I am in such debit over it still trying to pay everything off.

Eventually my fiancé got back to work and was better then ever he had so much life in his eyes it made me so happy. Things were starting to look up he got a promotion at work which made him feel great, we had just moved into a new apartment and even though we were in debit we concentrated on all the good things happening in life.

Unfortunately going into 2015 took a wrong turn. My fiancé was doing good but I then became sick. I could always feel a lump in my throat and I was tired and weak and sometimes it was hard for me to breathe. I first saw a ENT specialists, after seeing him for the first time and going through a MRI he could already tell me there was a small mass located in my esophagus and I had enlarged lymph nodes which meant my body was trying to fight something off but couldn't. The doctor said it was a great possibility that it could be cancer and wanted to remove the mass right away. So I had undergone surgery to remove the mass. After many follow ups and tests everything was looking good. A few months had past and this time I felt like a ton of bricks had hit me upside the head, I would throw up a lot and get severe abdominal pain and I would have really bad vertigo where I would have to lay flat on my back for hours just for it to go away and sometimes I would loose consciousness.

So first I was referred to a gastroenterologist he could not determine why I was feeling like this and what it could be. I went through a bunch of tests which included a lot of MRIs, cat scans, and outpatient surgeries. After everything with my stomach came back as normal my gastrointestinal had referred me to a neurologists.

So in the present as of right now I see a neurologists who is running me through a bunch of tests and he tells me it may be some kind of tumor putting pressure on my brain which is causing my symptoms. In the midst of all of this I haven't been able to work because it has gotten so worse that it impacts my everyday life. I have to be laying down almost all day in order to feel ok. As of today I have not worked for the past three months. I find it crazy that now the roles have changed and my fiancé is now having to be in the role I was once in. He is so great, he makes me smile from ear to ear even when I am at a all time low, he is the light of my life and I would never trade him for anything I love him so much and he deserve the world and more.

Before I stopped working I had gotten into a car accident because while driving I lost consciousness. My car was ruined and Since we are in such debit We didn't have enough money to pay for the damage and I then had no transportation. My fiancé drives a 2004 scion and unfortunately now his car is starting to break down and he is the only type of income we have coming in. Again we have had to apply for four loans to pay for rent, bills, medical bills and now money for his car. We just got a notice last week that if we plan to renew our lease they are raising it $200 more and I'm scared of what is going to happen with only one income.

I would love to try and get my finance a new car so there is no worries for transportation, also to try and get myself a car so I can drive to doctors appointments so he does not have to miss time from work, and to pay off our debit so we can try and live comfortable again and not have the weight of bills, car troubles, and loans lying on our shoulders.

I wish that I could work so badly again but right now that is not a option due to my body acting the way it does. I want to help my fiancé with anything that I can.

Thank you again for stopping by and taking the time to look into my life! Anything would be greatly appreciated! Thank you! :)