I'm 35 years old and life has been always a difficult challenge for me.
In 1997 I had the terrible experience of Partial Sudden Sensorineural Hearing Loss (SSHL), commonly known as sudden deafness and it changed my life.
After that event, having so much trouble to walk, I have never recovered from it, so I had to accept to have only one ear, tinnitus and balance disorders per life.
After my father passed away, not having choice then live with the wrong people, I was victim of severe mistreatment. I was little and not able to deffend myself, having my father's inheritance taken and leaving me that way, in a life without any resource, to study a career or even just survive.
Many years later I found a precious person who understood all my health conditions and loved me unconditionally. My marriage was a blessing. My husband had a special heart and cared for everybody, he was an angel on Earth, such a pure soul, always smiling, singing, loving.
Our life wasn't easy because we didn't have a home. We were always exhausted, struggling to find a place to live, but our love helped us to keep going.
He traveled accross the oceans to be together, we were 4 years married, years that I treassure so much, but he had a very frail health. My loved one, had diabetes type II, heart problems, diabetic neuropathy, fetal alcohol spectrum disorders and trouble to breathe.
He went through so much pain after a leg amputation because his diabetes caused necrosis on his right foot, prior to that, he survived a stroke, but no one told us that during the 2 months after the stroke, he wasn't getting enough blood to his brain.
Few months ago he passed away and I feel completely devastated in my heart. I can't express my grief with words.
During the 19 days at the hospital he barely ate, he was very sad to see himself without his leg, but we had the hope that he was going to get hospital discharge. Doctors were going to operate him a second time, since the wound of the amputation got infected again, but that morning he started to have a breathing insuficience.
The weather was humid 103° F (39°C) and he didn't even had a fan.
He had a cardiac arrest even after 3 times of cardioversor.
The whole medical staff (30 doctors) tried unsuccessfully to resuscitate him.
My husband passed away in a humble hospital close to where I live. It's an old building falling apart lacking medical materiel and most of the days on strike.
I lost a part of my heart. Nothing is the same without him, I feel such emptyness inside.
I honestly can't move forward without the help of all of you. I am dealing with a lot, the grief stages, with my heart broken, I am very lonely (no relatives and no friends).
I live in the west of Buenos Aires Province, sadly the goverment doesn't provide help and charity organizations doesn't exist in my country.
We don't have jobs either for people 30+ years of age. I am 35 years old and if there would be a job around here, the companies only hire people from 18 to 25 years old and completely healthy.
I am unable to go out of the house due to my conditions, I am all the time isolated, very ill, my health is untreated for not having an income, (I didn't apply for widows benefits and with my late husband, we never set life insurance. I have nothing but the precious memories with my late husband) I need special tests and treatments to find out the underlying causes of my conditions.
Hypochromic Elliptocytosis Anemia, this affecting me for many years. It causes me not being able to walk more than 5 blocks without having lot of issues. (Breathing heavy, hypotension, dizziness) I blacked out in the past and I am praying it won't ever happen to me again.
I am partially deaf and didn't get any help for my hypoacusia since I was 14 years old, the noise that I have in my deaf ear (Tinnitus) is sometimes unbearable.
I suffer hypoglicemia not knowing what was causing it, I have fatigue and hypotension.
This is my only way to get help to access to medical treatment, afford the medicines that I need (I need Accu-check blood sugar strips, to have safe and controlled blood sugar levels) they are expensive to me, Iron tablets that are expensive too.
I need to be able to eat, I need move into a healthy place, the house I am is an old unfished building and unhealthy place, that deteriorates my health constantly, only reason why I can connect to the Internet is because I have free wi-fi and I got this phone as a present, years ago.
The only relative I have is my mother but she is disabled and can't help me with her monthly $100 dollars fixed income that is only for her disabilty.
Life with her is very difficult, she doesn't understand my conditions and grief.
It's just a lot to me to deal since I need serenity during my grieving.
Please do not ignore my claim seaking for help, the minimun donation is a dollar, I am feeling very sick while I'm typing. I started this page with the hope to get help.
I need recover from a very difficult life, lot of emotional and physical trauma from the past and be able to face the grief stages with peace and step by step build my life again.
I love English language and arts, I want to study a career, be able to walk outside without feeling weak, fit into society, experience happiness. My late husband didn't want to see me suffering. I feel better thinking that it must be still hope for me.
I can't continue like this, life is too beautiful and I'm still young. Finding this web site gives me that hope, I thank you for reading the story of my life that I wish with your help it can turn in a positive direction.
From my heart, thank you again.
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(takes 1 minute) to sign up (following the link that is below my story) and asociate a card (credit or debit) and any help will make a diference in my life.