I was hospitalized this year again for Major Depressive disorder and Severe Anxiety disorder. The treatment that my psychologist set up was working well for me. I no longer had thoughts of suicide or self harm. I was ready to tackle the world. Yet, the world tackled me, when I was unable to afford the rest of my treatment. My medication is expensive. After 2 months of not using my medication, I slipped back into wanting to kill myself. I cant see my psychologist or psychiatrist because I have to pay them as well. I really want to get better. For myself and for my daughter. I want to stop crying and feeling unworthy. I want to be happy. Really happy. I would not be doing this fundraiser if I didnt really need it. I just want to get better and continue living. Help me battle this disease and end the stigma. Mental health does matter. Thank you in kindness.