Why does the universe choose whom to serve?
I have been a follower of the Law of attraction Principles since 2015. for more than 5 years I have been using the LOA to create my life and I don't even know if I have been doing it wrong all this years or what.
I can say things have been running smoothly for some time but the most of the time they don't work out for me. I am a positive thinker (don't judge me by this story), but all i get is the negative ones. I know that my reality will finally match my mindset but why is my mindset positive but my reality is negative?
I have even come to the conclusion that the Law of Attraction does not work!
A series of bad/negative experiences have been following me and I always tend to look on the brighter side of the story. But I cannot lie, the life that people see and that i experience as a human being is not to be admired.
And even COVID 19 has made the matters even worse for me. Here is a sequel of the things that have occurred to me that really make me feel so intimidated and make me backslide on being Positive
Since Jan 2020, I had being employed at a local Supermarket as a Data Entry clerk. The company decided to have a slice of the employees and I was one of those who were thrown out.
March 2020 I found another job as a shop attendant at a shop but with the COVID 19 directives that inclided lockdowns i had to go back home and try working from home.
June 2020. The company that I was working with online closed all my account since i had registered it from Kenya, of which they ceased offering their services there. I became jobless again. Its really hard getting some online works especially with US companies while hear in Kenya.
December 2020. The Landlord closed the doors to my room because i had not paid rent for 5 months. i tried getting help from close family members but they all had nothing for me, so i was left alone.
Since then untill now I have been sleeping in an empty room near the bathrooms and its becoming trickier by the day.
Food bas been something else, surviving only from hand to mouth or by free food on some school canteen.
I even feel I'm almost at the end.
All the techniques of manifesting i have tried, including meditation, two cup method, Magic Check, printable money, quantum jumping, journaling, the 555,
I have followed the advice of LOA teacher including Mary Morrisey, Dr.Bruce Lipton, Bob Proctor, Katherine Hurst, Joe Dispenza,You are Creators, Andria Onkka and several other people but none has ever worked for me.
I have even hypnotized myself for money by listening to subliminals, creating hypnotic pics with money, buy nothing just works. I have lived for more than 3 minths without money and its hectic.
Now I am homeless, no food, my girlfriend left me, no one else to look up to.
The photos included show how determined I am for this to work for me and what i plan to do when the Universe and my God blesses me with money.
But on my side i have skills. I am good with computers and technology, I know I am smart, I have good education, but why can the universe bring opportunities my way?
I am really depressed by this and I resoluted to asking fellow Manifestors who have succeeded to help me out at least manifest a good house and food, especially now that the country has imposed a new lockdown.
Any help including money, advice, techniques or encouraging word will be appreciated.
I don't want to loose the little faith left in this😭
Thank you and may you manifest the positive for you.