A student who once got off track wants to go back to school, yet he does not have the money to sustain his studies. Help him get back on track!
Hello, friends! I am Jim Dongiapon, 18 years old, from Davao City, The Philippines. I am a former student in one of the famous universities in the city. Why did I say “former student”? It is because I am not in college for more than a year now. By now, I am supposed to be an incoming 3rd Year college student who is enjoying his summer vacation. Yet, bad things due to bad decisions really do happen.
As I was scrolling on my Facebook feed, I saw a photo with the quote, “Most of our mistakes, the big ones at least, are the result of allowing emotion to overrule logic. We knew the right choice, but didn’t obey”. That quote struck me, and I suddenly felt one big punch coming from a thing called reality. It said, “I told you so. If you just obeyed your parents’ collective advice, you would not be in deep trouble right now”. And yes, he is right. Now, what is this “deep trouble” reality is saying? Let me share to you a not-so-long story about it.
THE BEGINNING OF IT ALL
Right after I graduated high school in 2015, I started to find universities that offer the degree program of the field I am interested in – that time, I was interested in Communications. Three schools offer the program: Holy Cross of Davao College, University of Mindanao, and Ateneo de Davao University. Days after, I narrowed my choices to two: UM, and AdDU. I started to ask myself, “Now that you have narrowed down your choices, the next thing is: How will you sustain your studies”?
I consider our family to be in the lower middle class. Yes, we can still manage to eat 3 meals a day, but my parents can no longer sustain my studies. I immediately thought of ways to sustain my studies, and I finally found one – scholarships / financial aids.
I applied for three scholarships: The City Government Scholarship (STEP), Commission on Higher Education financial aid, and The Ateneo De Davao Working Scholar Program. My application for CHED was denied, but my applications for the other two were accepted. Now, I have to choose one.
On one night of May 2015, during dinner, my parents and I were discussing what university and what scholarship should I choose. They weighed in on everything: If I choose UM and STEP scholarship, I still have to pay for some fees, but I will be on full load, and I will be enjoying freedom. If I choose AdDU and the WSP, I will be working for a school office, at the same time studying, I will not be on full load, and I will have less freedom. My parents unanimously said that I should choose the City Government scholarship, and enroll in UM. And here comes trouble! I disagreed with them and said that I want to enroll in AdDU because I wanted to study there since it was my “dream school” and it was my “first choice”. We argued about that, and as a result, I got mad about it. That time, I did not know it was my raging hormones talking, and not me – the sane me. You know, teenagers really do let their raging hormones take over their system.
There may be some fighting that happened, but in the end, my parents have supported my decision. And so, I took the path I wanted to take. I enrolled in AdDU under the WSP.
Because of this bad decision I made, the domino effect just took place.
MY EXPERIENCE AS A WORKING STUDENT
During high school, I befriended some of the student assistants from college. I asked them some questions about the path they took. They said it was all about “time management”. I was curious about how they do it, and that made me interested in undergoing the same program. Raging hormones added by curiosity equals bad decisions.
I started my duties as a working student during the first semester. At first, I thought it was all easy breezy. But, it was not. It really isn’t so easy to manage time when both worlds’ demands are too high for you to accomplish at the same time. As a result, I became stressed during the first semester.
During the semester break, I reflected on what should I do next. I already thought of temporarily quitting school that time, but my parents won’t allow me. I had a backup plan, which is to appeal to the scholarship committee to change scholarship program. But, it was denied. I am still under WSP. I had no choice but to continue.
Things got worse during the second semester. More activities from both academics and office work came. Like what happened during the first semester, I became stressed until stress devoured me. It literally took control of my life. At that point in time, I can no longer make right decisions.
During the last day of classes, I was called by my superior, and I got reprimanded due to me not performing properly in office work. I did not know what to tell her that time, and I was not able to say any word due to embarrassment. I left the office crying heavily, and since then, I was not able to continue my studies.
It’s been more than a year now since I left, and I can’t help but think of what should have happened if I made the right decision. What the hell was I thinking at that time? I felt guilty because I have made the biggest mistake of my life so far. I cried during some nights when I am all alone in my room. I’m sure everyone who knows me is asking this question right now: What happened to the bright student we know, and how did he become so stupid in making decisions?
Yes, life happened. I screwed up, and I might not be able to go back to college. Maybe this is God’s way of teaching me a moral lesson. He helped me learn that decisions need to be thought wisely and emotions should not be the ones to make decisions for you. It is tough, but I have already learned it. I thank God for making me wiser.
And just when I thought that there is no more hope, I found one. Sometimes, curiosity leads to good discoveries.
THE MOMENT I DISCOVERED CROWDFUNDING
In my one long year of having a sabbatical, I was actually looking for ways to find money to continue my studies. Some people close to me suggested that I should work at a call center. I did not welcome that suggestion for I am just fresh from quitting a job (and they want me to work again?). So, I continued to look for more ways. I discover paid surveys and tried those. But, it is difficult to earn the minimum cash out amount. So I looked for other options, and I came across a Facebook post about crowdfunding. I got curious about it, and I even told myself, “There’s still hope, and I think I should try this one”.
Now, here I am, reaching out to you people. Please help me get back on track. Help me have a second chance to be able to do things right. Help me make my dream come true (I want to become the face of the next-generation media).
HOW WILL THE FUNDS BE USED?
This is how the donated funds will be used:.
Php 30,000 (approx. $609) will be used for paying my debt (because I was not able to perform well during my stint, that is why my balance is quite that big. Php 40,000 (approx. $812) will be used to buy a new laptop (that is capable of rendering videos and edited photos) that I can use for school work (and a potential sideline). Another Php 40,000 (approx. $812) will be used to pay for my tuition for two semesters (I will be transferring to another university). The remaining Php 15,620 (approx. $317) will be used for my daily allowance.
I pray to God that this time, with His help, I will succeed and that He will continue to guide me as I take on new journeys in life.
Please help me get back by June 2017 or November 2017.
Thank you, dear reader, for reading my not-so-long story. God bless you!