help. we need money for the house.I left alone with children without a home.

very embarrassed to ask, but there is no other way out. I understand that to some extent to blame herself, but what's done is done.

My name is Maria.

I am a single mother. I have five children, and now I am waiting for twins.

Until recently, my family was all, well, if not good, it is quite normal. I myself from the orphanage, and always wanted to have a big family.

After graduating from the boarding school, I've always worked, I found what seemed to me the man of her dreams. They began to live together, rented a small room in the dormitory.

First, we have a daughter Natalia, then the son Sasha. But after that we were calm. Yes, in the crush, but we lived. Problems nachilis when I was waiting for the third child, Anya. The husband, although a civilian, but he was her husband began to drink, and to raise hands on me. With the birth of Alexis and Katyusha, things got worse. My husband stopped working at all, drinking every day, and regularly beat me and our children. And when he learned that we are twins, just packed up and disappeared.

Since last summer, 2014. I have been working in the market of the seller, pay 40,000 tenge (about 161 US dollars) a month.

Money and always was not much, but live normally. And now as the owner learned that I go on maternity leave, at first I wanted to fire me and eventually hung up on me shortage of 150 000 (about 605 US dollars) !!! But I did not take the money! Due to the fact that I can not pay the rent for the room we just put up with the kids on the street. With difficulty, I persuaded a woman, a third Sayer who buy my products on the market, we have to let the children in temporary barracks.

I have no more strength. I'm terrified and desperate. The owner threatened that if not return shortage will submit an action against me, and the children were sent to an orphanage.

But how?! Where can I get the money? For me it is a huge amount! The loan does not give me more than one bank, since I do not have housing, low wages, have five children. I also have relatives there. I do not know where to turn. Wherever I approached, I always refused, running with the certificate goes in a circle. Benefits for children I do not get, and I can not get, because I do not have a permanent residence permit.

I already can not look into the eyes of children, and can not imagine how we will survive the winter, I'm afraid to think. It's outhouse. Where there is neither heating nor facilities. And because small children!

If I lose my children, I have no reason to live. It's my children, I wore them on my heart.

I ask if anyone can help, even than that, I'll be grateful all my life. not just take one, and the banks do not give. those who promise to help with access to - all need an advance payment, and I think that is a deception, as esteemed and realized that none of that does not get.

Now I learned that if I can make $ 5000, the bank in my situation can give a loan. and then I can buy a house for a day. just build myself such a sum - I can not.

Really very ashamed, or when not asked, but I do not know how to be and what to do.

I shall be grateful for any help. they need money very urgently. Help someone who can.

I'm sorry for what is written. I do not speak English and write through the prog