Help Vernice to build her dreams

I am Jessa Vernice Jarapa, I started this Campaign obviously based on the title, to build my dream tshirt printing business. I only have the ideas ang strategies, but not the money to fire it up. I am an undergraduate, I took business management and already reached the 3rd year of my college when suddenly, I needed to stop. My uncle, one of those who raised me and sent me to school, got diagnosed of having a chronic kidney failure on August 2015. Her sister that time was 3 months pregnant on her 3rd child, and grandma was old enough not to stay and take care of him on the hospital. So I really and obviously needed to discontinue my studies... to take care of him and to help in the completion and processing of the documents needed (required) by institutions here on the philippines to get financial assistance. We got a lot of help, and debts. After a month, he was stable and sent to the ward room but because we don't have enough money to settle the bills, it took 3 long months, before we finally able to return him home. We still have balance left in the hospital until now. I got a job, I was able to at least, give his needs, their needs. Especially his dialysis sessions. Including their medications of grandma. But after almost two years, April 2017, just 2 days before my birthday, my grandma died. She died because we don't have enough money to send her to a hospital. She got brain dead, it was already late when we're able to get her to the hospital. It was my fault. I know. And 7 months after, my uncle died. Still, we don't have enough money, I don't have enough money, my salary is not enough for the needs of my 3 cousins and my uncle's. I wasn't good enough as their provider. It was me who sent them to their deaths. Until now, I still think of that to myself. That it was all my fault that's why they're not here anymore. It was really painful for me. :( That got me to have a death anxiety disorder and depression. From November last year, until this day I am suffering those two. Then I remember my 3 cousins, I remember my other cousins, my nieces, my real parents, I still have the chance to be a good provider, I still have the chance to make my grandma and uncle proud of me, I still have the chance to get out of this depression and get away with this anxiety, and that is to not give up but just go after my dreams. To go after my passion. That is this. To make ART. And to get others wear my art. Achieving this dream would really mean a lot to me, no actually, it would absolutely give meaning to my existence and life. And I am also planning to donate a percentage of the future profits of my business to a charity or foundation (chronic kidney disease patients). Just to give back what I (will, hoping to) have. And then, if its settled, I could also go back to school and continue my studies to get that diploma as a gift to my grandma, grandpa and uncle (which they really deserves). I really hope you could help me. This is the last thing I could think of as a mean of gathering back my life into place, into its good form. Please, help me make these dreams of mine come true. I truly believe that there's still a lot of good people that has a big heart out there. Please! Please! Thank you for your time in reading my story. (You can check my facebook account if you want to validate or know something about my story if its true or not)