its sad that im writing this but it is what it is.
weve been together for 5 years now, long distance relationship.over the years the idea of being together was difficult to imagine being that we were 6 thousand miles apart.
we saved up everything we had to see each other, there were just days. it was only recently that life opened a huge door for us and we manage to get married this year September 2018 in Australia( where he is from ). it was amazing , we had just 50 guest and to this day it amazes me and reminds me how the world can surprise you that you would end up marrying your best friend.
my husband however recently had a nail from a nail gun shot in his left eye.hes been out of work for approximately 6 months now. he can barely see even now , i basically used every penny i had to run to him 2 days after i heard about the injury to stay with him and take care of him as he couldnt drive and barely did anything . he was strong though, he didnt complain, he manage to make jokes and was very patient despite what happen. im so proud of him
so many things happen after i left from taking care of him , his car broke down , his grandmother past away . he was alone thru this, i could only sit and hear him talk . all of this has somewhat stunted our funds for a spousal visa that we aimed for March 2019
Recently , just days ago i found out im 3 weeks pregnant, or most likely 4 . im scared , excited and all sorts of emotions,scared of knowing that im possibly facing this alone, absolutely terrified knowing we are already miles apart and most likely will be spending another year apart , scared if we were able to support this child.
my husband is an apprentice for carpentry, just a year in and i know how hard he would have to work to help me in this pregnancy , not to mention the fact it kills him knowing he cant be there by my side. i wish i could help ease his burden . i wished i could do more
i am barely hanging here, constantly panicking , having nightmares about everything under the sun.
i dont want to do this alone. for reasons i didnt even think possible , i love this 'peanut' , its only been 5 days since i found out i was pregnant and i had a few people talking about abortion but it sickens me to my stomach. how could i part with something that was part me and my husband? how could i deny this 'peanut' life knowing that my own mother could have choose the same to not have me ?
i never imagined in a million years i would get pregnant this soon and i definitely never imagined how 5 days could make me fall in love with something thats growing inside of me , so beautiful and precious.
The funds would be used for the Spouse visa and all remaining would go to the future baby.
we would need the funds before December 10th , hopefully we can apply for the visa earlier and i pray to God that they wont deny us of the years of Longing to be with each other and for us as parents to be together for the birth of our first kid
Please help us keep this family , im calling out to everyone who is in a relationship, being apart is difficult. Weve had a sum of 120 days together over the past 5 years . help us be together. it means everything.
every penny counts , and im forever grateful and hope to reciprocate as soon as i am able