Help to study

I come from a poor family, iam the only one son from my mother, I have got many many other brother from my father bood but from my mother blood iam the only one. My gran-mother helped me to accomplish my secondary school but from there I stucked because she could not support my education and unfortunately my mother is now dead and I can not get an job that can help me to pay my study because I do not have an degree so iam now stucked many friends that we finished de secondary school together they have now an degree and the sad is that many kids that I left them in the primery school at time that i finished the secondary school they are now at university making their degree and iam still stucked, I feel happy to see them in that position but at same time I feel sad because iam still stucked.So that is my story, Iam not very good in english but I think this is enough to make the world know my story.