Help to stay on Depression Meds

Hi my name is Robi.  I am on medicine for depression.....My son Cory passed away on 11/22/2009, he was 22 years old and lived with his father.  On 9/10/2012 my husband Steven passed away and then as I was calling family members my ex-husband told me that my son cory was dead and no I could not talk to him. ??  (He kept his cell phone on and his facebook & myspace updated, when I called Cory for Thanksgiving my ex told us that Cory was mad at us and to give him time.......)  What kind of person does this??  Cory has an older brother (Chris) and younger brother (Shane) and a younger sister (Chelsea).  We are all devasted that we didn't know and still dont know what happened, we have no closure.  We all miss Cory and Steven so much.  Then on 1/13/2011 my kids also lost there stepbrother (Nick).  We were seeing a grief counslor but then things got worse, on 6/26/2011 my boyfriend (Doug) and his roommate (Tony) we murdered in his house.  The kids and I had our own apartment, and were home at the time.  I dont really remember to much (stress and not wanting to believe this) but the landlord kicked us out and we lost most of our stuff.  We had to move into the house where the murders happened with Doug's son (Ron).  We were able to say all of our beloved rescue pets but needless to say things are very hard.  I have tried to rehome the pets but all were feral cats and they only love us.  We also really need them as much as they need us.  To keep my mind busy I do a TNR for feral cats that come up to eat.  I will have to stop this as I can't feed all of them and us.  

I also need to see a dentist as all my bottom teeth are broken and abcessed now.  I would also love to move (it's so hard to live here with everything's that happened in this house.) for me and my kids, but with the depression and teeth issues I can't find a job.  I just need a little help and will definetly pay it forward when I can.  I hate seeing my kids and pets hungry and depressed like me.  Last month was my birthday and now my car insurance and tags are expired, my daughter Chelsea is helping with her job but she has to walk home at 3:30am after work now so i get up and walk the 4 blocks to her job.  We obviously do not live in the best area.   I'm sorry to have to ask for help but I really don't know what else to do.  I feel like I'm going to have a nervous breakdown but I'm all the kids and animals have left.  We applied for pet food stamps and are waiting but it breaks my heart to hear every one cry from hunger.  If anyone can please help I will provide you with a card & pic's of us and our therapy pets. Besides continuing to pay it forward (even if I is just by listening to another person that need's a friend).  I'm also would like to find out what exactly happened to Cory as my ex has no desire to explain and just hangs up on me.  I did talk to the Orlando Police to ask why I was not called and they said that since Cory was found at his Aunt's house the figured that they would call us.  Well some people love to hurt there ex's nad boy he sure did.  They (the police) said I should work on a law to pass that all parents must be told of their child's death because what happened to me is very tramatic.  Really??  I just don't know how or even where to start.  Please feel free to contact me with any ideas.  I'm trying so hard for my family.  Thank you for reading this and I'm so embarrassed to have to ask for help.