help start walking

Hello! I realize I am not alone but I hope to help. Dear readers . If you have time please read. My name is Eugene A. Stepanov, I was seriously injured spinal cord in 16 years, not having had time to really live now I am just After the injury I strongly paralyzed .I have my family and friends are struggling with the trauma already two years AND feel so sad that at 18 years old I look at all with their heads out of the wheelchair. When children play soccer participate in competitions and even just walking I character a strong person but once I keep looking tears themselves ??????????????.?????? at my grandmother who cares for me as for a small educates younger brother whose cerebral palsy injury. coached brother played sports with him and then brother started running But now trouble breaking into the two of us AND I really want to go that would grandmother already rested from me .????? to stand on the legs is very good For these two years of the struggle for life, the Lord gave me a chance in LIFE to LIFE and not to ?????????????.?? that would be to walk again need rehabilitation good in good rehabilitation centres but Finance such centers no One the course is quite expensive and the doctors say I need to live in such centres, My family is not in power save such ???????.? and brother were left without a mother she died after a long ???????.???? 5 years not ??????.?? live three ??????.????? HELP PLEASE I am NOT so MUCH DONE IN THIS LIFE ...STUDY the CAREER of FAMILY CHILDREN .??????? LIVE AND NOT EXIST.....t 89091788837 ALL the VIDEOS of DISCHARGE FROM the HOSPITAL. PEOPLE will forgive plead with all of my soul don't ignore please help . But now studying for a want to engage in politics . Please please I want to LIVE . honestly not very convenient to ask for your help But I don't know what to write, what to do what to do . Because I have a life I saw . Very much about my dream . really want to buy a car and want to work in politics . For example to buy a car only in Germany with the special office for the disabled AND in Russia as always no one unfortunately not what I will write because they believe " If a disabled person why he machine where him to go home and sit" and I want to LIVE, I was young I don't want to give up GOD GAVE ME a CHANCE to LIVE he didn't let me perish twice, he saved me . Or very upset when I ask to write me means of rehabilitation which is put a little more me proper it stands on 40 thousand rubles more than that is 150 thousand rubles, and I get a refusal to grant funds . Calling there I was explaining my situation is that the grandmother retired and I hurt anyone help deal with and needs exactly this simulator and in response to a phrase "Zhenya we are adults and you know if you you get on your feet we wonder we spend you money" after these words, I cried from resentment and asked to introduce themselves and send me the exact same written refusal but he said," we will sent a letter of refusal" in which there was this speech, and such words. and after these words I have precisely decided Unlearning and to go into politics . Sorry for the arrogance that so much to ask but it is only for the sake of LIFE . PLEASE PLEASE ????????.??????? if you read ???.? understand, I in fact the case is not different from those of people from hundreds, even thousands, of people who contact you for help but one still in me IT's the FAITH and DESIRE to LIVE AND I can never tolerate wheelchair I never let what would I had this thought that maybe enough and need to give up No never will I stand up for the sake of his grandmother for his brother and stand in the evil people that left me in a difficult minute, or who did not believe in me, I will arise and will live . And I really want to help people if I settle down to work in the policy .I STAND . As they say "TRUST IN GOD AND ITSELF NOT FORGET" again God gave me a chance to LIVE and I want to take them plead with all souls help. Now the second leg began moves .http://www.kurgan.ru/news_obschestvo/s_18-letnim_parnem_sluchilas_tragediya_srochno_nuzhna_reabilitaciya.html http://www.kp.ru/daily/26139.4/3028352/