Help Set An Angel Free

Please take the time to read this. You don't even need to donate, just please share this so I can get my story out there. 

I am a 22-year-old proud fiancée of a Ranger in the US Army. We've been trying to have a child for two years now, but we faced extreme difficulty. I only have one side of my reproductive system. The doctors always said I could never have a child and if I did by some miracle, I wouldn't carry to term. A little after my 22nd birthday, we got the news that I was pregnant. I was overjoyed, so was Jarod. Then the unthinkable happened..

There are almost as many stillborn babies as there are breast cancer victims each year ... but why isn't more being done?

I knew something was wrong when I didn't feel my baby kick for almost an entire day. It was 28 weeks into my pregnancy. At the hospital my worst fears were realized. The baby that was still inside me was lifeless. I started shaking, the hopsital obstetrician held my hand. I looked at Jarod, and this was the moment that makes my heart ache the most - tears were flowing and he looked as if he was going to fall over. Fatherhood had just slipped from his grasp. When the obstetrician said the words, "I'm so sorry", the world, as we knew it, ended. Angelica's, Angel for short, heart had stopped and I think for a brief moment, mine did, too. I don't remember much of what happened next, but now I'm just a week or so from delivering my baby that will never take her first breath. (They're inducing labor, as they said it is the healthiest thing for me, but it will take at least a week for them to have an opening since I have to have a C-section). How did I not know? Why couldn't I feel her leaving? How did I sleep while she died? My heart is gone. This pain makes me sick. I close my eyes and picture my baby looking at me wanting to wake up, wanting me to see that she was dying, that she couldn't breathe. And I didn't. I was supposed to protect her, and I didn't. I picture her trying to kick.. trying to wake me but she was so weak that she couldn't. I don't understand. 

This is the hard part.

 Jarod is getting re-deployed in a little more than two months. The military is already cutting him a break by giving him an extended leave so he can be with me during this time, which is very, very rare for them to do. (We aren't married yet). We would like to bury her as soon as possible. I had to quit my job following complications during this pregnancy. (Severe pain, nausea, etc). 

Money is extremely tight, and the cost of a nice funeral for my baby and to cover these new hospital fees is $10,739. We're already putting off our wedding to the point that it doesn't seem like it will happen. We can get by with just $5,000 as the funeral home will accept us in a payment plan, but we still have to make the monthly payments and there will be interest. Jarod is too proud to ask for help, but I'm not.

Please help us, in any way you can. Jarod broke down the cost to show that we aren't trying to splurge on an extravagant funeral. We just want our Angel to have a proper burial..

Even if you don't donate, I still appreciate you taking your time to read this. Message me if there is anything else you'd like to know and I'd be happy to share with you. I need any form of help I can get.