Nothing can ever surpass a mother's love for her children, and because my mother was a supermom too, I would do anything for her as her daughter. My mother is not the type to be asking for help. She is the most down to earth human being I have known so growing up she became my role model and I just wanted to make her proud throughout.
Unfortunately, cancer doesn't give a damn who to choose. While she worked abroad away from us, she tested positive for Breast cancer on 2012 and attended treatments and chemotherapy all by herself. We were already a broken family, so she would either go with a friend or by herself. To anyone who hasn't witnessed chemotherapy, the difficulty on seeing a patient go through it is real and wholly heartbreaking. I hated how I couldn't do anything from a far because I was just a student. She always assured us she was fine and that she can handle it. I trusted in her and prayed harder she becomes well. After a few years of her working and treatments, the company she works at let her go because she has turned 60 years old and the company is strict on these matter. Eventually she has returned to us in our home country, Philippines, and settled in with us. Fast forward today, we never realized until it's too late how she never completed her medication because coming back here, her usual vitamins and meds she took abroad were free and affordable, but in Philippines these were off the charts expensive for an average family. We weren't rich, but we did get by, and only these kind of expenses is when we're honestly troubled. She hid this from us and let it go because she assured she was already feeling better anyways. She got a job in another city where she was accepted despite her age. It is to help us all get by with everyday. We would see each other atleast once or twice a month and continue to work. But last year, August 2018, she told me she noticed she started walking funnily and was conscious about it. It didn't hurt but it was just strange. As long as it didn't hurt, we figured it must not be something serious and decided to let it go. Little do we know it was the start of our heartbreaking events. A month after that, she has been feeling sharp pain on her lower back that made it difficult to walk, and it shocked us to see her use a cane this time while walking. We decided to give her a CT scan because we assumed for her age it must be her backbone degenerating and pinching some of her nerves. But the results were way more shocking. Apparantly, it was metastasis, or in other words, cancer spread to other body parts. Our world was once again in turmoil. But after reaching out to close friends and family for financial help, we were able to accompany her on consulting doctors and also undergo radiotherapy. The effects were brutal. She drastically lost weight, kept throwing up and cried from the weakness of it all. By this time around too, she hasn't been able to stand up properly, and so the start of the wheelchair. Despite the senior discount and the government healthcare provided, we were always short. But it didn't stop us. We made sure she completed the sessions. By January 2019 she completed it, and though the pain has lessened she was slowly able to stand again. But it didn't take long to take that joy away from her. The next check ups revealed the water in her lungs has gradually increased and she has again felt pain on her joints and bones. Her bones has become way more brittle because the cancer is aggressively spreading. We are now very careful with her, that even carrying her can result in a sudden fracture. She can hardly feel her right arm and right leg. This made her more bedridden and we see her in so much difficulty all the time. Her small movements would make her gasp and cry. But you know what's the most heartbreaking of it all? She still tells us she is okay.
My heart breaks more and more every single day. As her daughter I want to continue giving her everything she wants as much as I can. I do not earn a lot, but I would do anything to continue making her smile despite all this pain. Any day I fear she can be taken away from us, and I hope to do everything for her smile without regrets. And it's all simple cravings of healthy clean food is all she asks these days. But I would give her more if I can. We are still fighting. I simply want to buy or make it all for her. I also want to provide her the best and convenient and safer medical supplies to make her life easier. I still want to bring her to check ups to atleast help treat what can. I want to take her to places while she is still with us. I want to let her live everyday because she is not only a patient, but a beautiful mother who deserves all the goodness in the world. But like I wrote, I do not earn a lot and I come from an average family, hence, I will not ask much as I am only asking for a small donation or even like a small change would suffice in helping me let her live life to the fullest. I will forever be grateful for your understanding and kindness. What child would not do anything to the give happiness to their loving parents.