I'm doing something I never thought I would do, which is turn to the kindness of strangers for help. I'm a recently discharged veteran, saddled with denied disability claims courtesy of the VA, overdue rent payments, and no support from my family (or lack thereof). I'm not quite sure how I ended up in a position where I've had to choose between keeping the heat on and purchasing college textbooks, but one thing I do know is how unbearable my meager living situation has become. With no real family to speak of or friends that have a stable enough financial situation to help me, I'm not really sure what else I can do.
Living with general and social anxiety along with a major depressive disorder has left me as a shell of who I used to be. My landlord has been kind enough to give me constant extensions on my rent, but I am in fact finally facing eviction.
I live alcohol and drug free, but also have no social life, car, pets, or any common day to day luxuries as I can barely afford basic necessities like toilet paper and soap.
Yesterday was rock bottom for me. I had one pen for school, and it ran out of ink. I was too anxious to ask anyone to borrow theirs, and had no money to buy my own, so I got up and left. I'm embarrassed to admit that these kinds of decisions are ruining me, piece by piece.
I don't expect much help, as there are so many people with far worse issues than my own. But a month ago, I had to give up my 2 year old pit bull as I couldn't afford to feed the both of us and take care of her the way I wanted to, and the way she deserved. If I have any chance of getting her back, or another dog to help me through my mental shortcomings, I need to have a roof over my head; which is why I'm asking for assistance with my rent. I know it's a long shot, but I finally feel as if I'm out of options and have no other choice.