Hi, my name is Grace. It has been a month since I have constant tension & throbbing headaches and sometimes it was too painful for me to even move. I was on always on medical leaves for a few weeks and i tried taking a lot of panadols but it didnt work. I had to cancel work appointments after work appointments which means it also made me lost a few deals. I felt that this wouldnt work in the long run and normal GP only prescribed me medicines such as panadols. I felt that i couldnt take the pain anymore and seeked help from a specialist for a cure, hence, I went to made an appointment with a neurologist. Initially, I thought that it was only a one time visit but it only hit me hard when my problem was due to depression.
The doctor told me that all the signs were pointing to depression. I wasn't referred to a psychatrist because he felt that the medicines he prescribed were sufficient. But little did i know that i had to go through many follow up visits which caused me more money. Life hasn't been kind on me recently and I am currently going through a lot of problems from work and my loved ones. I knew I had slight depression but I didnt know it would be so bad. Until today, the headaches hasn't stopped and I still have to go for follow up sessions. I didn't seek a psychatrist because it would be more costly and I was already running out of savings. I wanted to end my life but that would mean I would be a disappointment to my family and I knew my family would suffer and I am afraid that might worsen my parent's condition as they too hasnt been in the best of health.
My closed ones were aware of my health problem but couldn't help much. My friends offered me some advices but the one that really touched me was my neighbour working next door after he learnt about my conditions. I didn't talk to him to seek pity but only to talk about what was going on with my life as I havent been well late. Little did I expect that he would have done something for me. He actually transferred me some money to make sure I am eating well and try to heal myself. I am deeply touched by his kind gesture but I felt there should be another way I could help myself. I couldn't rely on my friends because they all had their own families. The place where I worked in (which i always considered as my second home) was also failing and the business would be winding down in May.
As stubborn as I may be, my friends would also know I wouldn't ask them for funds if i needed to but it's to the point where I also learnt in life not everyone would be willing to help out. I didnt dare to tell them my conditions except to say I needed some funds.
Asking for any donations in kind is very hard for me and now starting a fundraiser was even a harder decision today because it would mean to seek help from people I do not know and I can only pray for you guys out there who had came across my page. The funds would be used for my neurologist medical bills only (today, i just went to the doctor and the bill cost me $220 and im unsure how much more is needed if i had to keep following up and seek help) and psychatrist if my condition gets worsen. The excess money raised, I would be giving it back to people in need. I would love to thank everyone in advance for your prayers and help if you could help.