Help needed

PLEASE HELP ME IF YOU CAN.

my names are lingerie Andrew peter mwangi. I live in Nairobi Kenya on the eastern part of Africa. I used to work at the airport but since March this year I have been out of work because my employers stopped us because of the pandemic and the airport had to temporarily close. My employers have since stopped replying to my emails and I've been struggling to get another job. It hurts me so bad to see my children constantly crying and being not happy at all just because they don't get enough to eat at home. It kills me so much that I'm frequently having disturbing suicidal thoughts cross my mind and its getting too much for me to bare. I'm holding on for the sake of my children. Any help provided will be highly appreciated thank you.