Dear reader, I want to reach out to you for your support to co-create this with me.
BE SURE TO READ THE UPDATE TOO and get inspirede by the EXPANSION OF VISION AND PLANS.
First I want to tell you a little bit about my personal experience with horses and my motivation to why I want to bring the Horses to the Heart IQ Community. And in doing so, it will explain how this is my way of contributing to creating the 'new normal' for humanity.
(Christian Panhurst, founder of Heart IQ Network, has initiated this with his Humanity 3.0 movement.)
This is my story:
The first time I ever experienced who I really am and what I am here for, what I’m meant to be and do in this lifetime, is actually the first time I truly connected with the heart of my beautiful Shire horse, Lady Ashley and opened my heart to her.
I have had her for about 5 years when all of a sudden all of our connection and communication literally stopped. She froze and just refused to go one step further. She just would not go forward or back, nor left or right in the middle of the woods where we were riding. At that moment I first got really frustrated and angry and tried to force her by hitting her, pushing her, kicking her. But she just wouldn’t have it. She blocked and all I could do is give in, get off and just sit and wait. I waited for myself to calm down and took a few deep breaths trying to do so. And after a while I finally found a moment to look at her and see her, for the first time, for who she really was. She was my mirror. She reflected there and then my refusal to live life the way I was conditioned to live. I had been believing that in order for her to follow me as a leader, I need to take control in everything. And she has to listen and do as I say. But she refused, time and time again. Never ever gave in to that dominance game I was trying to play, not really. And here it was, this moment, and I finally got it: she just stopped moving and waited for me to come back into sanity to see: “Hey what you are doing here, it isn’t working!”
And from that moment on, I just couldn’t do it anymore. I couldn’t force her into doing anything she didn’t want to do or didn’t feel safe to do. I opened up to her as a equal partner and teacher in helping me grow in consciousness and open my heart to live the life I was meant to live and not be imprisoned by limiting beliefs, stuck emotions and destructive habits and behaviours.
For the first time in those five years I saw her for who she really was: I saw her spirit, her generous heart, her patience, her softness, her honesty, her loyalty and her unconditional love for me. Because, no matter what I did to her or had done to her. She has always been ready to forgive instantly and open her heart again and again. Every time I got present in the moment and ready to open my heart, after closing it in defence so many times, she was there for me. And she continues to do so, to this day.
From her I learned how to love unconditionally. How to be grateful for all of what life is giving me and to be in awe of life itself. How the relationships we have wit others, is a reflection of our inner connection with ourselves, the nice parts and the shadows. How everything that happens in life is perfectly orchestrated, it is all just perfectly the way we need and want it to be for us to grow into more and more consciousness about who we really are and how powerful we are as human beings in creating our world. Not just our conscious perception, not just the part about life we understand with our conscious mind, but how our higher selves are really always serving us in what it is we want and need.
And wow! Now I feel blessed that I have been able to open my heart for my horse. It lead me to open my heart for myself and others as well. Through that heart connection with her I became willing and ready to be fully be present in my body and mind, aware of what is it is that is really moving or stuck inside of me. So I can reconnect to my true self, open my heart and allow the healing energy of that transform my being, time and again.
So, now why this Fundraiser?
The longing to share my gifts, together with the horses, is deep and strong. In my work as an Equine Facilitated Learning Coach (I have been coaching people this way since 2009, see my website: www.horsesense.eu), I have been able to open peoples hearts and touch their lives, through connecting with horses in a Heart Connected and Heart Intelligent way. Giving people an embodied experience with a horse, enables them to translate the emotional energy dynamics that are going on in their personal lives, into healing and heart opening and community building dynamics, instead of defensive and heart-breaking and heart-closing dynamics that seperates us and puts us in our defense mechanisms.
This is what motivates me to open up and ask for help from you, as a community. Because this, I cannot do alone!
It is my longing to invite as many people as possible to come and connect with horses through the heart, so they can feel and experience what it is like to connect and work with them in this Dance of Authenticity and Freedom of expression, from a Heart Connection with Self and the Horse.
It so is what I love to do! And it is what I feel I have to contribute to the world!
But so far in my career it has always been a major challenge for me to actually earn a sustainable income with this work. And now, for this year, I have set a new goal in this.
My goal is bigger than I ever dared to take on, so this is where you come in with donations and support!
The goal is to bring my two beautiful horses to the Heart IQ Retreat Center in Hemrik and do a 5-day retreat: "Heart IQ through the Heart of the Horse"
And I need as much help as I can get to make this work!
So, are you interested?
And do you care about this work I am gifted to do with the horses?
If so, if this resonates for you and you would love to contribute to this dream of mine, please feel into what it is you feel you can do to contribute.
To get this dream started I need….
I have made a list for myself of things I already know for sure I need, to make this work. To make it so I personally keep the energy and money flow going where it needs to, in order to do this work in a more sustainable matter than I have done so far. So I can finally really serve others, while taking good care of my personal needs as well.
I have messed up that flow in the past, so many times. And now I am in a financial cramp and I need money to come out of this first and foremost. To be able to keep stepping up and out of the many fears and anxieties I have had around this and do what it is that gives me energy and joy to get this work going.
And I am doing it. I am doing my personal work around the lack-beliefs that I have created for myself and that has led me to this situation. I have a wonderful ‘team' of Heart IQ people around me, including my partner, that support me in this. And it is a ‘work in progress’. I am telling you this, because I want to make clear I am not looking for suggestions, solutions or advice around how to make money or do healing work around this, at this moment. Please know and trust: I got this, I am doing it!
Most of all, plain and simple: Right now, I need money.
Oh my God! The hardest part for me in this is to admit that I need money!
I need money to be able to sustain this flow of energy around this work I came here to do.
I have a lack of it, and the situation I am in right now is not sustainable.
I haven’t been able to take care of myself properly. I haven’t put enough priority to actually care for myself and my horses enough, sharing our gifts. I have mostly been prioritising the growth of others and been in survival-defense mode, keeping myself stuck and small in fear. With that dynamic I don't stand up for my own personal needs as a human being in this current human society, to be able to stay in flow and connected. To have a sense of safety and comfort in this human reality, enough to do the work sustainably.
But now I am ready to step up and make that change. Admit my defeat and start all over again.
And so here I am; asking for your support.
About this Retreat with the Horses:
It is going to be a 5-day retreat for 20 to 30 people in Hemrik at a price that is very low and basically just covers the expenses I need to make to make this retreat happen.
The price participants will have to pay will include covering at least these things:
• venue costs for using the Heart IQ Retreat Centre and it’s facilities
• the cost of me moving my horses to Hemrik and have them taken good care of at the stables close to the retreat centre
• my travel expenses and stay at the Heart IQ Retreat Centre
Besides that, participants only need to take care of their personal expenses in food and accommodation at the Retreat Centre, just like at the Heart IQ Experience.
And also, at the last day of the retreat, I intend to do a similar ceremony to raise what is called Dana in Buddhism. Dana stands for ‘practice in generosity’. It gives people the opportunity to honour the teachings and value what they received from me, the horses and the co-facilitators. They practice this generosity by giving the amount of money they feel matches that value.
I cannot and do not want to do this alone and I am looking forward to co-create this event.
And I'm already so grateful, because many of my Heart IQ friends have stepped up and offered their services to help create this. Wow!
So... now back to the reality around: money
To make this happen, I already mentioned, I first and foremost need to get out of this financial cramp I am in at the moment. And to help me do that, I have decided to set up this fundraiser. This will help me to pay towards covering these things I am facing in my life right now:
• a debt I have with the tax-office for income tax I thought I didn’t have to pay but due to some changes in the system I missed, I have to after all.
• Professionalize and promote my business as a Heart Connection Coach and Trainer for horses and their humans. For example: update my websites, have a professional photoshoot and marketing video made of me with my horses, etc… Anything needed to touch more and more peoples lives with this work with the horses, also outside this Heart IQ community.
I am looking at raising €6.000 for me to get a new kick-start so I can stay energised and able to continue this journey I am on in creating beautiful workshops, retreats and much more possibilities of Connecting the Hearts of People to the Hearts of Horses!
If this resonates for you and you would love to contribute to this this work I am doing and help me realize this dream of the Retreat at the Heart IQ Centre, please feel into what amount feels right for you and donate.
Forever grateful for your gifts, I will continue on my path, no matter what! Because I love life and people, and I will always love to generously share my gifts with the world. Thank you!
Heart to heart,
PS: for more info on Heart IQ and Humanity 3.0, click these links:
And especially for my Dutch friends a shors explaination:
Heart IQ is een 'way of life' die gaat leren relateren en dus ook communiceren met anderen en de wereld om je heen, vanuit een open hart. Daarvoor is het nodig dat je je veilig voelt, zodat je er aan kan bouwen in zelfvertrouwen in het leven te gaan staan, te kiezen voor waar jij blij van wordt, je hart te volgen. Maar onze defense mechanismen en overlevingsstrategieën blokkeren ons vaak dat te doen wat we eigenlijk diep van binnen wensen. Hart Cirkels bijvoorbeeld, bieden een manier om, terwijl je in relatie/contact bent met anderen, te leren om bij jezelf te blijven en authentiek te delen wat er in jou speelt aan gedachten, gevoelens, emoties en fysieke sensaties. Door een veilige ruimte te creëren binnen een Hart Cirkel, kunnen we dat Heart Intelligent communiceren en zijn met elkaar oefenen.
De visie van Christian Pankhurst is dat als wij dit als mens allemaal individueel voor onszelf kunnen doen, Heart Intelligentie beoefenen, dat we dan een meer liefdevolle, compassievolle society creëren met elkaar. En daarom is hij de Humanity 3.0 beweging gestart vanuit Heart IQ, hier zijn we met elkaar bezig Community te bouwen op basis van Hart Intelligentie. En ik draag daar dus aan bij met mijn paarden door mensen in contact met het paard te brengen en te coachen op Hart Intelligente wijze. Zodat ze kunnen ervaren hoe het is als ze hun energie en intentie zodanig in lijn brengen met hun hartsverlangen, dat de ander/ de wereld om hun heen (of in dit geval dus het paard) dan ook werkelijk anders reageert.