Help mend a mothers broken heart

My name is Kelli Im 33 years old Im a mother of 4 amazing children. Devoted wife and stay at home mom for 11 years. Imagine staying home with your children for their entire life. Watching them grow nuturing and teaching them along with keeping the household together and peaceful. Keeping it all together even thou I was slowly falling apart feeling like a ghost in my own home. Two people who once loved each other could no longer be in the same room. Feeling like strangers in a chaos filled home . Happiness disapreed never able to agree hurtful words and loud voice became reality. Our four children suffered the most. As their mother I had to make a hard painful choice and that was to seperate their father thats the day my worst nightmare began. All i wanted was my family to be happy. Sometimes the hardest things are the right things. Being a stay at home mom who was fully depended on my spouse for financial support beside the small amount of cash brought in from my cleaning business that was just for extra money. After asking for a separation with the hope of working on a broken home thing went from bad to worse. Staying in the same home together for 6 months until we were given 30 days to vacate from property due to fighting. Words were said that cut deep. Control and abuse filled my life he closed our joint checking after transferring almost $20,000 causing me to get 7 hot checks 5 of which were to our children school. He also activated on star on my car blocking it with a four digit pin. With him being the breadwinner I was barley able to put gas in my car and give our children lunch money. I ran out of gas many times. Trying to avoid confertation I would leave the home when he got home from work and return early in the morning so he was able to go to work and I was able to get our kids off to school and stay home with our three year old. This made him more angry and I started to fear him. With only 30 days till we had to be out he was promising that when he got paid that month that he would pay to get our children and I a place so could be the custodial parent and he would stay with a friend until he could afford another home. He was making almost $10,000 a month I believe every word. Two days before we had to be out of our home I found out from my mom that he had went behind my back and got a place for him and our children leaving me homeless and broken. With no means to support our children I had no choice but to let them go with their daddy till i could figure something out. With no money to file for a divorce or hire an attorney I did my best to be civil but that was only one sided. He went and hired a good attorney filed for a divorce and put a retraining order on me with false accusations. At this time I was working at a bar part-time just trying to make ends meet. He had me served at work I felt my heart shatter that day. I was so broken it interfere with my employment . I was living in my car with no ac and showering at the gym. My life was the darkest it had ever been hard to get up in the morning broken hearted with out my kids. Weeks passed with no visit to my kids. I was there with them every day and it on split second I wasn't sure when I would see them again. It was the end of the school year so as I would always do I went to my kids award ceremony. My son was graduating the 5th grade so it was a once in a life time special memory. But that memory was shattered as I was escorted of campus as a result of my ex actions.Finally able to borrow $2,500 for a retainer fee 2 days before our first hearing. I hired an attorney quick and little did I know that I would quickly be worse off than before. After a long day in court with little to no answer my attorney wanted another payment of $2500 when I was unable to give it to her she withdrawal from my case leaving everything in my ex control if I wanted to see my kids. He continually uses our children as a leverage and does things just to hurt me. I am currently staying with a friend paying $400.00 month in rent. Im unemployed right now due to wanting to get out of the bar sense due to late shifts and wanting to be able to make visit with my kids. Some days I dont even know if I will have food to eat. Im driving a car with no ac or power steering. Some days it's hard to get up in the morning. I am asking for prayer and wanted to thank you for taking the time to read my story. This man has taken everything from me people I thought were my friends all our martial property but most importantly my babies. Time I will never get back. My goal right now is to raise $2000 for retainer fee for my new attorney with court only a couple weeks away September 25 2018. No donations is to small any amount will be greatly appreciated. Thank you for you help mending a mothers broken heart.

Im also giving discount on one time deep clean for local people to put towards my goal of $2000. So I can be with my babies . There nothing more painful then not be able to see you children every day and not be able to kiss them or hold my baby has been the worst night mare ever. Any donations help and will be greatly appreciated and if your unable to donate please share my story. Word cant express my gratitude.