My dream: Becoming a Commercial Pilot, Yelp me reach it

Hi, since I was a kid, I really wanted to become something, when I grow up, that make me feel free. But why free? Because I never (and still now) had a nice childhood, but there were people that always were there for me. When my mom got pregnant she was still with my dad, he was always a "good guy" till he found out my mom was pregnant. Then, he was always mad at my mom, because of me, and they broke up a few months after I was born. My father NEVER loved me (and still don’t) and i don’t know why. He always calls me to blame at me about how bad is his life. Or to tell me he wanted to kill me, my mom, or something. He always makes me cry so much, and lately, he only says that I’m the biggest mistake of his life. But, my life it’s not just hard because of him.

When my parents weren’t together anymore, the ones who looked for me (and still do) were my grandparents (I couldn’t been more grateful for having them in my life) when my mom was depressed about my dad living, they look after me. When my mom got married and then they got separated, they also look after me. When my mom went to depression again because of her new husband cheated on her, they looked after me, and try to avoid me watching the scene that they were making in front of me (throwing things around the house, etc) and they told me everything was good, that It wasn’t my fault. When my mom was still with him and no one of the could look for me (because they were "busy") they went into a trip of 3 hours to go to carry me, cooking for me, help me at school (I was 7 in those days) and looking for me every day to make me feel like I was good with living with my mom (which now i realized the real facts). When my mom was weeks in the hospital because she tried to kill herself, they look after me. When my mom went far (as my dad) and go alcoholic (she’s still with that problem nowadays) and she spent almost all her money and sent me a little bit of(and sometimes, nothing) and my dads money(he only send me money because he’s legally forced by a demand) they look after me, and help me with their own money. When my mom went to another country and never sent me a single coin, they still did the same, because they love me, and they made my hard life, into a easy one, because they always were there for me. Now, sadly, my mom FORCED me to go living with her to another country, and I’m apart of my grandparents. And I have to say that my mom is not working, and she has to pay so much money to the banks because of the time she was in depression and alcoholic so much, now she’s better, but she’s alcoholic anyway. I have to everyday watch her fight with her boyfriend and always go to sleep crying, i call them and they make me fell better, but I can’t hug them anymore, they are so far apart. I just wanna go professional pilot because is my dream and I want it because I want to give my grandparents everything that I can In this world, because they spend all their life since I’m in this world to love me. And if I become a pilot, I can go to visit them anytime I’ll have free, and apart I can pay all the amount my mom has to pay to the bank too. I just want to have my dream, and make my grandparents feel that I’m the most greatest person in this world for all they have done to me. I love them so much. I’m hiding them identities, and mines too because I’m so scared that something happens to us, hope you understand me! Blessings to evryb