Help me to start a new life.

Please help me to start a new life i am suffering from a "Major depressive disorder" i need treatment with medicine to under go therapist. My depression start a long time ago now i thought it's just a normal one that i can handle not until i am alway's thinking and trying to kill myself. I don't have the courage to fight for myself because i can't see myself worth living. But i am hoping to start a new life with the help of medicine and doctor i want to have a new life to be happy with the love of my life. Any donation will be such a big help thank you.