Hello everyone. Basically you can call me, Ema. I am 25 years old (2019). I need a fund for me to go to Istanbul, Turkey. I am a single mother of four kids, no joke.
I get married early (16) because I was busy looking for a love at that age (father issue, or can I state it as attention issue? Lol).
The life I thought was a fairytale end up not as what I thought I would go through because when I was 23, the marriage did not work out anymore and we decided to get a divorce.
Through the marriage, I am a fully housewife because I have no qualifications and I decided to take care all of my kids. After the divorce, I am quite lost because I have nowhere to go, because I grew up with a broken family (parents separated also).
But, after all I am still thankful that my ex husband help me with the child support. All these past two years, I tried everything so that I can have a little money but that does not seem like it due to I have so little time to think about money and I need to use a lot of my time for my kids.
I have no one to talk to, or even to borrow some money but after all I am still thankful I am not that poor, I still have food and house (rent) to live.
It just that I started to think to myself that I need to push myself a little hard and gain some success in the future.
Why Istanbul? Because I love the place even though I never been there, I keep thinking that the place would help me to forget all the heartbroken memories here.
I had discussed with my ex husband that he and his new wife soon will take care of my four kids for one year, and after I manage to have a job and a house to live in Istanbul, I will come back to bring the kids to me back and live together again.
I don't want to separate with them but I don't want to keep living like this. I want to upgrade myself and my kids.
The flight fare will be approximately cost around 300$ and if I manage to get the fund, the balance will be keep and use for food, room to stay and transportation while I'm staying there and looking for a job.
I am so embarrassed actually but this is the last thing I could think of. My father haven't asked how I am doing and my mother living in Australia.
I have been so depressed lately because I keep thinking that I am such a useless person and I want to be able to have my own money so that I can make my kids proud of me one day.
Hope everyone help me because I am desperately need it so much