Help me to stand on my own

.Just some intro abt me..

Im a mother of 5 young kids.. age 10,9,6,4 and 2yrs old.. my 9 yrs old boy have adhd and on daily medication my 6 yrs old girl is now suspect of adhd and my last is a premie and required special formula.. similac neosure. Currently my husband is not working as he meet with accident at work n still seeing the doctor on daily basiswith his we are struggling. Im currently on medication for depression and hope to get well soon. I have try to go out and work to help with the financial even the doctor asked me not to work. but after working a week the kids will fall sick and i have to take leave n the company not happy and was asked to leave.. after getting the job i feel so much better my confident grow but after i was asked to leave i fell hopeless. Sometimes i even think.of ending my life..many times went i feel like a useless mum...😭😭

I have major depression and with the financial issues we are facing its really make me feel worst at times i just want to end my life and im really feeling very down.even our family life is affected. Currently i have no friend or family to depend on as they think im crazy i only have my husband n kids with me...

All im asking for is a 2nd chance in life to change the family situation. Im a precreta survivor and believe god give me a 2nd chance to change everything.

. As for the kids i managed to send them to childcare n student care with the help of fsc. I have try my best. I hope im not wasting ur time reading this as i dont have anyone to express how i fell n what i want. Hope to hear from u soon...... pls help me