Sad. Angry. Ashamed. Embarrassed. Without hope. Awkward. Depresssed.
This is how I feel when I’m writing about this, right now. And the list might be even longer. But, who wants to read those ugly and sad words, anyway. So, I’ll keep it short.
My name is Narcis Robert, I’m 26 years old and I live in Romania. You might say ‘’What are you doing here, in your mid 20’s?’’. Well, I just want to put a smile on my mother face. Figuratively and literally. And I can’t do it myself.
Because of her destroyed teeth, she can’t eat almost anything. Her mouth is not straight anymore. I just want to see… I just want to see her eat and smile. Even with a small glipse of joy. It’s a small moment, maybe a very normal moment for the world, but for her, it’s a big one.
You know that feeling when you come home and your mother says to you ‘’How are you, darling? How was it?’’. In the last 10 years, I only heard ‘’I wanna die’’, ‘’I can’t live anymore’’ when I was home.
If you are thinking about that, you are right. My mother suffers from severe depression and she tried many times to commit suicide. My father has a drinking problem because of her issues and every single day, he would just sit in the kitchen and drink. Sometimes we fight. Sometimes is peace, but that’s quite a rare thing nowadays.
My mother is unemployed for about 7-8 years now. I’m working a full time job plus doing extra work, just to keep us alive and paying bills. Nothing else.
Thank you from the buttom of my heart for reading this and for helping me!
‘’The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.’’ - Helen Keller