Help me to leave sex trade

I end up in sex trade short after I finished 18 y.o I came from a poor family where my mother and father like to beat me up often I was desperate to leave them and start to be independent ....I was victim of sexual abuse and later I got raped couple of times I ve bean beaten up couple of times outsude of my home as well and booiled ...Life was really hard on me seems like everyone target me as their victim.... First I started to date man I found on a chat sides but short after I got offer to work in a sex club that lady told me I would make lots of money there and that I can also live there for free ....I thought It can be my chance....So I decided to try that turn on me first travel inside my country between different sex clubs and than I also start to go abroad .... Finally I decided Sweden has to be a good market to make money I contacted some people they were polish and we talk about conditions after I went there.....It wasnt good decision that ppl who promised me lots of money showed up to close me down in one apartment and I got zero money .... Luckily they gave me food ....... I managed to run away from there and get into contact with the police. I didn't know names of that people or their adress so police said they actually cant do anything in that case and told me " to be carefull " I was in shock. Shortly after that ppl start to contact me and threaten me and they want money from me as well ... I run to Norway and I think they forget about me finally ... As I had no other way I continue selling sex ... During all that time I really hated my job I felt ashamed and worse than other people ...I drawn into depression ...During that time I end up living with different guys who would use my vulnerable position they would abuse me , call me bad names and also two of them beat me .... Still am not getting any help from anyone totally on my own. No one wants to help me . I try to find a way but my depression is soo big that I just want to die ...I hate my life ... My life it's just a nightmare ongoing path of pain .... I started to draw about a year ago and I thought I could sell my art to make money for living but it showed up to be failure ... And than I felt as a failure and end up in psychiatric ward couple of times I wanted to kill myself one time I spent there a month ... But still got no help.... I would like to go to school have as stabil home where no one would abuse me and just be able to get education to find a job or maybe open some kind of buisness but I caant do it on my own. I also would like to help other woman like me in the future becouse I know that I am not the only one who is forced to live like this ... Please help me to achieve my goals and leave sex trade .

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