Help me to end my sufferings

Hello everyone, I will be using my nickname for now. Nickname is xxhy and a worker from XX company. I won't reveal the company name because I don't want to cause any troubles.

Beforehand, everyone made mistakes right? Nobody is perfect. But for my story will make you guys puzzled or stunned or disgusted because of my action. I admitted that I was wrong, greedy and thoughtless at that time. I was commited a crime for stealing money from my company and currently working for them to pay off my debts.

The first reason why I stole the money it's beacuse I'm the backbone of the family and always in need of money. Second is I have to pay my siblings school stuffs, bills and some groceries stuff. I was stealing it without knowing any consequences.

After they caught me doing so, we talked about it and I'm almost go to the jail because of it. Since we have the solution to solve it, they decided to cut off half of my salary since I have a poor family background. I had signed the contract for settle the debts then you can resign from the company. After that they took some photos of my identical card just in case. The company accused me for stealing about RM4000 (about 1000USD). But I swear I didn't steal that much and it was insane. Even they have a solid proof but it doesn't mean that I stole that huge amount of money. Because of their power, I can't do anything. I can only just listen to them and try my best to pay off the debts.

Until this day, another same incident happened again. But this time they involve me to that incident. I was baffled and I don't know what to do. I'm trying to explain but the boss won't listen to me. Some workers had admitted that they had stole some money from the cashier. The boss trying to put the blame on me, he even accused me that I was cooperate with the workers to steal the money even I didn't interfere their business. I learned from my mistakes last year and of course I won't do it again this year. I admitted that I was dumb and foolish to do so back then. But my heart and life just couldn't take their blames on me. I'm trying to prove to them that I'm innocent for this case and they just won't believe me. They already checked the camera surveillance for many days and they still accusing me that I took the money from them.

So I'm decide to make a fund raising in order to settle the debts in one go and escape from this company. It's torturing me in many ways. They won't treat me nicely since then. They would ignore me and always finding mistakes on me even though the others did the same.

Until this day, I haven't got my salary yet because of them. My family is not rich and my mum had left the family, my father is sick and currently jobless because of his health, I have to work by myself for them. I have 4 siblings need to take care of. I cried for many days because I just couldn't handle the blames on me. It's heavy and hurts so bad for myself. I already paid the company about RM1000 (about 250USD).

My only wish is to resign from this company as soon as possible. I hope this fund raising will help me and my family. The balance from the money will fully give it to my father for some medical needs. I want my father to be healthy and I want to bring back our family's happiness. Lastly, I just want this suffer to end once and for all.

I was very foolish for my action and I am deeply regret for doing so. I'm sorry for my family and everyone who is involve to this matter. I'm deeply apologize for my mistake.

Thank you for reading this. I hope you guys can help me to end my suffering. I'm desperate need help from you guys.