This is a personal plea as I don't know what else to do now. I feel guilty and selfish sat infront of the computer typing my fundraiser, as looking there as so many other far more worthwhile causes to support - but this is my last chance and only hope.
If this does nothing, at least it will let me have a good cry typing this and hopefully will let me release some of the emotion I'm bottling up.
In October last year I was made redundant from a well paid job to be honest. I had a nice house, a good lifestyle and was always grateful and humble for what I'd worked for and enjoyed.
Sadly I wasn't eligable for redundancy and have been a job seeker and on benefits since.
We lost our house in December last year because of the redundancy and it was repossessed - i'd never wish that on my worst enemy and god I didn't think it could get any worse.
We sold everything we have of value to keep paying my car finance but now - and with just 2 monthly payments left on the car, from the 4 year agreement, we've been beaten.
There simply isn't any money left or anything left to sell on ebay or car boot sales to make these last 2 payments. And because the car is subject to a court order if we don't make them it's bye bye car and hello to despair and hopelessness.
It would be so bad if we could sell the car and just get a cheaper one, but with the court order that's not possible and a repossession would mean it gets sent to auction and we get peanuts back.
As I say I feel ashmed and shallow for putting this advert on here - please think about donating to the worthwhile people who need medical attention before me. I just know what this final loss will mean to me.
My job needs a car and if its repossessed that means a CCJ so it will be a vicious circle from there getting back to work and I won't be able to get car finance again.
Any donation is appreciated and humbly received - I do know what else to do.
I feel I've let my family down so much. Sorry to my wife - I love you