I've literally tried everything and I'm giving up. I'm losing hope in myself and my future. I've gone through this before and I don't know how I made it through my teenage years. You want to hide away forever and never see another person again. People without acne will never understand the pain you go through everyday. I don't want to live with adult acne forever, and I'm losing control of my emotions. I was on accutane twice throughout middleschool and highschool and it cured it for a limited time. And now it's back and I have terrible stomach problems as well.. which I've read a million articles saying it's directly related. I'm a student in college with debt and rent. I can't afford to go to the doctor and actually do all the testing to see what's wrong with my body. But all I want and think about desperately everyday is how amazing and happy life would be with clear skin. I wake up thinking up the imperfections on my face and go to bed thinking about them. It's hard to live with it everyday.