Help me rehabilitate

Hello,

My name is Tony, I`m 27 years old and I was a gambling addict. My story begins when I was 14 years old and I started feeling the taste of what I thought is fun and easy money making. I started playing roulette and I won the first 10 or 11 times and I thought to myself I just discovered the Holy Grail. That Holy Grail that i thought i found turned during the years into a huge curse and in the last year it got so bad that I owned money to everyone, friends, relatives, banks. I could not stand to see anyone face to face and I have never been more ashamed of myself. The point of no return happened about a month ago when I was close to killing myself after I reflected on my life. I am now trying my best to pay my debts, I have a good job as an Engineer and even though some days I can`t see the bright side of life I`m struggling to set it all right. I`ve tried all banks to get a credit of 5000 euros to pay all my debts and remain with one single bank rate that I can now pay of my salary but due to my history of bad paying I can`t get any. I started going to Anonymous Gamblers support groups and as soon as I`ll have paid my debts and I can afford it I`ll get special therapy also.

I started this campaign with the thought that if some miracle happens and I`ll manage to pay my debts I`ll dedicate my life to paying it forward, step by step. The first step I thought about is donating 20% of my monthly income to charity and other fundraising campaigns that can make a difference to someones life. I will provide proof on a monthly basis that I have done just that.

Thank you for reading my story and I`ll appreciate any good thought.

Lots of love,

Tony