Help me pls, thank you

hi everyone, I got diagnosed with orbital tumor on my left eye when i was a kid, probably around 9 years old. My left eye is protruding (bulgy). Not much has been done to cure this up due to financial issues. Now im 20, still living with it. Tho ive been able live with this condition for long time, it made me lose my confidence in myself and in facing people. I avoid going to public or interact with much people due to the fear of judgment. It may sound shallow but it really means a lot to me. I feel like im missing so much in my life because of my fear and Im really tired living this life. It made me cry many times thinking how shitty my life is. My family listen to me , but i dont think they truly understand how dis really affect me, i do understand them. But im just so tired. Hopefully you can help me. And would definitely appreciate any help. Thank you so much. I dont actually know how much im going to need for my surgery since theres still a lot procedures and assessments that need to be done(biopsy etc) before the surgery, the biopsy however would cost 40000+ based upon the doctor assessment.If ever i got more donations, than what i need. I would be happy to give it back to other people like me who are needy as well. Thank you so much.