Hello everyone. My name is Valentina and I'm 21 years old, I have dysthymia (or high functioning depression), I've had it since I was 15. Right now I'm in the last few semesters of University and since this semester I've been paying for it. Since I study with a credit I need to pay monthly installments to cover the cost of the semester and keep up my GPA (3.93 right now).
I'm both working and studying full time in order to do so because my parents stopped giving me for both University and other expenses (like transport and food), I have what they give me at home but since I'm outside, either working or studying, more than 18 hours every day, I need to eat something outside and use my money to do so and now I'm running short. When I get home I just want to rest but I'm not allowed to by my parents, whom think that I have to tidy up the house everyday, even though I arrive home around 2am and study at 7 or 9am, and they charge me if I don't.
As I mentioned before, I have dysthymia, also known as high functioning depression. As the name says it's a depressive disorder and it interferes with my life, keeping myself together and such. I've tried looking for professional help but my mom, a radical/conservative Christian, doesn't like it and argues with me when I bring that up, saying I just need to pray more and that a professional will just make it worst.
I've been through a rough time lately and that's why I have decided to come here and ask for your help. I want to move out of my parents' house in order for me to (1) be able to actually rest when I get home, and (2) look for the professional help I need without being judged or attacked. With my salary right now it's not possible for me to move out right away, there are expenses needed when I first do, more specifically a rent policy that says that they will rent me the place only if I'm able to pay 3-6 months of rent in advance.
And that's why I'm here. I want to have a peaceful life and get help, but I need a push in order to be able to do so. And here's where your help comes in. I would be forever grateful for your help in helping me move out and you'll forever have a place in my heart and mind if you do so.
Thank you so much for your attention and God bless you.